tell me how to be

love i

i love the

stars in the sky 

i love the darkest cold

blue skies in places which just aren't here

i love the serenity of 

covering pages in paint

and the almost-breaking nostalgia of

childhood

i love 

hour long phone calls in blue light

and

walking pavements illuminated by

flickering orange 

i love velichor and the smell of 

faded pages

and i love netflix shows

and the thrill of eating ice cream straight out of the tub 

i love coffee and the dark bitterness that took

years for me to appreciate

i love good music and the crackle of amps and

the energy of a bass guitar and everyone clapping 

and i love the rain and

the pools of clouds

and i love chocolate and 

my friends

and i love the feeling of speaking to someone 

you love 

and i love the feeling of not having to speak to someone

you love because you can just be

and the tears of reading good books and

getting good grades

and i love imagining all that will

happen

and seeing my friends be happy,

and i love standing on stages

i love laughing for no reason whatsoever

and i love taking photographs 

and i love lazy mornings and

brunches 

and decadent milkshakes that 

i'll never finish 

i love that feeling in maths when

i know this moment will only ever exist once

and i love the sound of the cello and

those just good days

and i love escaping and

the ocean

i love coming together with people and

i love talking

i love old movie tickets

and memories 

i love good music which brings

back memories of dark car drives

i love walking around libraries, completely 

overwhelmed

i love the feeling of running to hug someone you 

didn't even know you were missing

and i love staying up at night and

dreaming 

and i love being with the ones

i love

and i love wearing enough makeup to look like 

another person

but i also love wearing no 

makeup whatsoever

i love the constance of the waves

and i'm scared of what i might do 

i love smiling in the sun and

just feeling happy

just being

i love writing and 

art and wondering and dreaming and hoping and wishing

and i love the

stars in the sky

i love the darkest cold

blue heavens in places which aren't here

and i'll learn to love it all,

one day,

 i'll learn to love myself 

I'll learn how to be