so, i've thrown my phone away,
i've shoved all the lies and pretences in the corner.
so i won't see you for a while,
in all honesty you'll be fine
the future is unclear,
i don't know if i'll be alive tomorrow
because all this dark thinking might just
engulf my soul today
and i refrain from saying too much,
because my friends might worry
and i tell you here,
don't
i've just thrown my phone away
so we won't talk in a while
and you might just ask why
and i might just tell you
how fucking tired i am of being played with,
how maybe it's partly my fault
that i'm just so easy
but i'll tell you how im tired of all the things you call jokes
how you don't understand why i can't tell you im sad sometimes
because depression doesn't need a fucking reason
how your friends call me ugly and you sit back
because you like watching me fight
so i've thrown my phone away
so we won't talk in a while
so i won't see you for some time,
in all honestly you'll be fine
because i need to
lie down and cry
and you might just ask why
and i might just tell you
how your friends are bitches,
how i know you're lying to me
how you make me want
to drown myself in alcohol and relentless waves of apathy and sad love songs
i hate you for never letting me feel safe enough
to smoke away my emotions cos i might just cough
and how you disrespect every single value i have
and i have to laugh and act like i don't care
so i've thrown my phone away
so we won't talk in a while
so i won't see you for some time,
in all honestly you'll be fine
because i can't be me around you
you make me feel like i can't care
you make me feel like i'm not
good enough to be here
you make me feel like
throwing my phone away
YOU ARE READING
tell me how to be
PoésieNO.1 in #loveisdead **trigger warning** a disjointed poetry volume that spans through the topics of politics, self harm, rape, abuse, eating disorders, feminism so on and so forth.. scroll through the contents and there might be something that you...
