tell me how to be

i can't run

i'm tired and

i can't run any longer

i can never get away from 

this

the sunrise is too weak for my 

withering soul

and im trying to hold on until i can

escape it all

but i dont know if i can so put me in the dirt, put me

anywhere else but here

and im scared the red will come seeping out

all over again

and i tried asking for help

god, i tried

but my parents called it attention seeking

and that hurts more than the fucking blade 

im tired

and my breathing is ragged

and when i told the boy i loved what i had run from he said

"that's all?"

and i cried more

and im tired

running from my ocean of tears

threatening to drown me 

and my muscles burn,

and my world shakes

my calves ache

i'm so tired

and i tried asking for help

god, i tried

but i can't run any longer