love at first sight (Nash grier)

Chapter 30

(Alex pov)

Every second I stood there broke my heart a little more. He can't say she came onto him because he was clearly enjoying it. How can he do this to me? He told me he would never hurt me like this again. He was having a full out make out session with this slut. I knew Brittany never wanted to be friends, cause at this point she's not even trying. At this point im completely done. Tears were falling from my eyes. I ran out the room and into mine. After I got into my room I locked the door and sat on my bed. Tears were falling from my face faster than ever. 

We just had the most amazing date and he goes and does this. I'm not good enough for him or for anybody. A knock on the door interrupted my thoughts. I didn't bother getting up to open the door. There was another knock on the door and I just sat there with my head buried into a pillow. Minutes later the door opened. I looked up to see Matt. He closed the door behind him and went over to hug me.

"What happened?" He asked concerned. I don't feel like talking so I didn't say anything back.

"Do you want to talk about it?" Matt asked me. I shook my head no and he kissed my forehead.

Nash was to busy sucking on the whore's face to even notice I was standing there. After a few minutes of silence Matt broke the silence.

"Was it Nash?" He asked and I just looked down at the ground.

"It was, wasn't it?" He said and I just nodded my head.

"What did he do this time"

"I-I caught him making out with Brittany" I finally said through all the sobs. After I said it tears ran down my cheeks. At this point I couldn't control the tears. I looked down and realized I was wearing Nash's grey sweatpants. This only made me cry even harder. We've only been together for a couple of weeks. I have no clue why I feel like this but right now I just want to be alone.

"Do you want to be alone?" He finally asked me and I shook my head yes. He kissed my forehead and said goodbye. After he left I locked the door and changed into some pajama pants. I hear my phone go off and I have a text from Nash.

Nash: Are you coming over? I miss you.

I texted him back and basically told him we were over.

Me: How could I be so stupid. We are over stay out of my life and stay away from me.

Nash: What do you mean???

Me: Stop playing stupid. I saw you kissing that slut

Nash never responded after that. I turned my phone off because I don't feel like being bothered with anyone right now. There was a knock on the door and Nash's voice soon followed after.

"Alex I'm sorry, please open the door" He says and it sounds as he is about to cry

"Alex please" I just ignored him and looked up at the ceiling. He knocked on the door a few more times and then he left.

(Nash pov)

After the date with Alex we went back to the hotel and changed into different clothing. Brittany walked in the room and she just wanted to talk. One thing led to another and we were making out. I felt someone watching us so I tried to pull away but she pulled me back in. After awhile we broke the kiss and I made her leave. I wasn't planning on telling Alex but she already knew and that's when I put everything together. I went to her room and tried to talk to her. I knocked on the door and she wouldn't answer me. I knocked again and she still didn't answer. I knocked a few more times and eventually gave up. I just sat outside her door with tears in my eyes. I never really cried over a girl before but Alex is different, there is something about her that completes me. If I could I would buy her the world. After a few minutes when I got myself together and went back to my room. I texted Alex multiple times apologizing but they never got delivered. I tried calling her but it went straight to voicemail. Hearing her voice made me cry. I called her repeatedly even though I knew she wouldn't answer I just missed her voice. I left a few messages telling her that I missed her and how I was stupid. I broke my promise to her. I promised her that I would never hurt her like this again but I did. I lay down on my bed and it feels so different. Normally Alex is laying down right next to me. The thought of Alex brought tears to my eyes. I love her so much and I ruined it with her. I lay in the bed staring at the wall for hours thinking about Alex. At around 2:00 in the morning I finally fall asleep. Later we have an event and I have to put on a fake smile and pretend everything is okay.