Only You

Riley P.O.V

Cash leaves and I stand there just absolutely frozen. I mean.. he's not even giving me a chance to think. And I shouldn't of hooked up with him.
"Don't call me or nothin" yeah okay cause I really would. I roll my eyes at the thought of it.

I walk into the living room and sit next to Audrey, "Riley do you wanna talk about it" she asks, "I just, he won't give me a chance to think. He's like suffocating me" I say, she gets up and grabs a bottle of wine and two glasses
"We're gonna need this" she says, I nod in agreement. "I mean I get it" she adds
She pours to glasses and gives me one.

"I wish he stayed in LA" I sigh and take a sip of wine. "He.. he pops up and expects everything to be fine... gosh. Audrey it's been a year" I say sad. I am fucking sad. Sad, sad, sad. Just sad.
"I know, but what if Cash really wants you back and to change?" She says, I shake my head.
"He does this all the time though" I say frowning, "so what makes this time different?" I ask, she frowns, "I'm not sure Ri" she sighs
"Do you love him?" She asks.

I take a sip of wine. "What does love have to do with it?" I ask trying to avoid the question. "Riley..." she says
"Look you know the answer just please don't make me say it" I plead. She nods. "Okay" she says softly. I sigh "I just think maybe you guys need to talk about the situation and what you went through" she suggests I nod staying silent "well, that's.. yeah" I hesitate. I cover my face "I don't know what to do Audrey..." I say, I sigh and lift my head up trying not to cry.
"I'm like..." I say choking up, fuck here we go with the tears. I hate crying it's so weak.
"I'm scared" I say, a tear drops onto my lap. I wipe my face and stand up.

"I'm goin for a walk" I say and throw my boots on and head out. I get into the elevator and once on the first floor I run out the lobby. Onto the sidewalk outside. I walk down the street and grab a coffee from a cafe I sit there for a few minutes inside.

My phone chimes
Cash: i'm sorry...

Pssh. I turn my phone off. I get up and head out continue walking and make my way across the street and keep on walking. I don't know where I'm going but I'm not going too far from home just around the block.
Jesus, why did Cash have to come back and fuck shit up again? He's all I think of but... I wanna like.. I don't know. I have so much shit to say but I'm so scared to because what if he leaves? What if he just lies again? I can't risk breaking my own heart again. I stop walking and sit on the sidewalk tearing up. I put my head in my hands and cry a little bit and pull myself together "cmon Riley be strong" I say to myself. I take a deep breath and stand up and head back to my apartment.
Why didn't I bring a hoodie? It's fucking cold.
Oh yeah, cause I'm an idiot.
Ugh.

I head back to my apartment but see Cash's Mercedes parked by a store he's not in the car so he must be in the store (well duh obviously)
I quickly throw my hood up and keep my head down walking fast through a crowd of people on the crosswalk hoping he won't look out the store window and see me.
I make it across the street and to my building.

Phew! He didn't see me! Oh thank god!
I run to the elevator. I run down the hall and into my apartment slamming the door behind me and quickly locking it. I lean my back against the door and catch my breath, throwing my shoes off. "Okay" I say to myself and head to my room. I collapse on my bed and look at my ceiling. Why Cash? Why?
I groan and cover my face "Why is this happening again!!" I scream muffled in my hands. I uncover my face and sit up.
I turn my phone on and see a missed call from Cash. I throw my phone at the pillow and sigh.
"Leave me alone satan" I say to myself.
I look at the time 5:30pm.

This has been quite the day.