Malibami / 1d

chapter twenty-one

"Come on, Lily, let's go!" Lou yelled, banging her fist on the bathroom door to make me annoyed. I shook my head, these girls were something special. "Almost done." I said, finishing my lipstick.

I stared in the mirror and looked at my reflection. I was wearing a nice dress, you could see the bruises fading although if you knew they were there, you could notice them. My hair laid nicely on my body and I liked my makeup.

We really had to go now, we were already late.

I walked out of the bathroom to see Kelsey and Lou both leaning against the kitchen wall, waiting for me to finish. "Fucking finally, you took a century." Kelsey said before getting her car key. I followed them out of the door and we walked over to her car.

The drive was silent, I had a little knot in my stomach and I didn't really know why. All this overthinking about Liam, Camilla and basically everyone was really getting to me.

I looked to my side to see we were there. The frat house really went far out of their way to make this Christmas themed. There was a huge inflatable Santa in the front yard and they even hung up some festive lights. 

Kelsey and Lou were leading the way as we walked in, being greeted by a lot of unfamiliar people. I really wanted to enjoy this party, but I just wasn't feeling it tonight. At least I came, that is the most important thing for Zayn.

At least people thought I was happy, even if I wasn't.

It took us a while to find Travis and Zayn. They were hanging out with Big Watts around the beer pong table. "Hey!" Zayn smiled, opening his arms for me to pile in to. I hugged him and continued the welcome with a kiss. 

I disconnected and greeted Travis and Big Watts both with a hug as well. 

We danced to the music for a while. First I just danced with Kelsey and Lou because the boys were too ashamed to show their dance moves. Zayn told me he really is a bad dancer so he left to get us both another drink.

Eventually I got him loosened up and we danced. This turned in to a full on make out session on the dance floor. "Come on." Zayn eventually whispered, pulling me with him up the stairs. I wasn't sure if I wanted to right now, with all those people downstairs and no lock on the door.

We walked in to his room and Zayn immediately pressed me up against the wall, kissing my lips and neck. "Zayn." I whined, trying to push him off of me. "Come on I've been waiting all day to do this." He whispered while trailing kisses down my cheek and neck and his hands roaming over my body.

"Zayn." I said, placing my hands on his chest and trying to push him off of me. He continued kissing me and I took all my strength to push him off of me. "Stop!" I screamed, staring at him.

His eyes turned dark and I realised what I had done. He was going to lose his mind at me. This was going to be it. "I am so done with you being a stuck up bitch all the time!" He yelled, coming closer to me again.

"You don't mean that you're drunk." I told him, biting my lip, my eyes getting watery. "You wouldn't be an asshole if you were sober." I said, realising I totally should not have done that. Why am I being like this. 

"If I want to kiss my fucking girl I will," Zayn said, putting his hand on my neck and pushing me against the wall. I caught my breath and stared at him with wide eyes. "Zayn." I whimpered, it barely came out since he was almost choking me.

I  stared around the room and closed my eyes.

I had made a huge mistake.

Now I realised why my brother wanted to protect me all this time. Now I understood why Zayn was bad news, a bad boy that I should stay far from. 

I put my hand on his arm and opened my eyes. "Let. Go. Of. Me." I said, staring at him. Zayn just showed me a small smirk and placed his other hand around my waist.

"You're mine. I can do whatever I want to you. Because you're mine." He said, the smirk getting bigger by the second. "I am not your fucking property." I yelled, placing my hand on his chest. He shook his head, warning me that bad things would happen if I pushed him off me.

I took another breath, which was getting harder since his grip around my throat got stronger by the second. "Liam was right." I breather out. Zayn tightened his grip around my waist. I was probably covered in bruises and nail marks now. 

"Maybe he was." Zayn said, stepping closer, the smirk appearing on his face again. "Now give me a kiss, like I asked." He said, his face now an inch away from mine. I took a breath and did the only thing I could think of at that moment.

I raised my knee and kicked him as hard as possible in his private parts. This caused him to scratch my neck with his nails. I put my hand against it, hoping it wouldn't bleed too much. He screamed out in pain whilst he fell to the ground and I stood there, not knowing what to do.

He got up and I placed my hand on the door knob. "You'll regret this, Lily." He breathed out, taking his fist and kicking me in the middle of my stomach. I caught my breath and took a second to recover. "We're done." I then ripped open his bedroom door, which hit him in the head and caused him to stumble back.

In the fastest pace I have ever had, I rushed down the stairs and straight out of the house. I ran on to the street in my high heels and off of the property. I stared around the dark perimeter for a second and then crossed the street. 

For a moment I felt completely sober, up there with Zayn. Now I was back to being affected by the alcohol and not being able to think straight. The tears then started to stream down my face. 

Then the realisation hit me that I had literally nowhere to go.

I couldn't go back to Lou and Kelsey, they have been friends with Zayn for as long as they can remember, they will take his side over mine any day. I can't go to my old dorm that I shared with Camilla because she would not welcome me in. I obviously couldn't go to my brother's frat house since they all decided to cut me out of their life.

Nowhere to go.

I was walking down the sidewalk with my bag in one hand and my heels in the other. I was freezing since I didn't have time to get my coat. I looked over to the beach and realised that it was completely empty.

Like some crazy zombie I walked on to it and over to the water. I dropped my heels and bag a few feet before the water and walked in to the ice cold ocean. The cold water hit my feet and I immediately felt my skin tighten up to try and keep me warm.

Zayn and I were done. Lou and Kelsey would not be my friends anymore. Liam and his friends hated me. I had literally nobody.

My thoughts were cut off when I heard somebody yell my name.

"Lily?" 

I turned around but before I could actually make out a face, I fainted and fell on to the ice cold sand, the water reaching up to me. It wouldn't matter if the ocean took me, nobody would notice.