Stood Up - Treebros (Dear Evan Hansen)

Chapter 16

Connor POV

Evan stiffly walked towards the hall with the bathrooms. I watched him walk to try to tune out Zoe's obnoxiously high pitched voice. It didn't work.

"Connor, you don't look like you're listening!"

"Well then I've succeeded."

"God, you're so annoying. Look, you even drove Evan away from you," she said gesturing to Evan, who was in the restrooms already.

She's right. He's probably sobbing in the narrow bathroom stall. He hates fighting, whether he's a part of it or not. Zoe and I are the cause of his anxiety attack that's probably happening while I'm thinking to myself about how I caused it.

I got up and went into the bathroom to find no one. Wait. I heard some movement in one of the stalls.

"Evan?" I was so quiet even I barely heard my voice. You know when you are in a quiet room and you feel like if you talk, the world will collapse on top of you? Same.

I heard an equally quiet whimper sound. Second stall. I tap-tap-tapped on the door.

Evan POV

"You're horrible, Connor."

Zoe didn't mean that. Although she has known Connor her whole life. I haven't. Maybe he.. Why am I questioning this? I know he wouldn't hurt me. Or would he?

Ugh! This is driving me crazy.

"Evan?" Someone else came in. He sounded like Connor. Oh god it is. I can see his fading black converse standing outside my stall. I don't want him to see me all anxious and sad like this.

The footsteps came closer to the door. Tap-tap-tap. I'm trying my best to remain quiet. It's hard when you were just bawling a second ago.

"Evan, is that you? Are you okay?"

See? He cares. He doesn't want me to be not-okay, right? Right? I'm overthinking and almost doubting the happy, caring nature of my boyfriend. I'm the horrible one, not him. I sniffled.

"Evan, are you okay? I'm sorry you heard Zoe and I fight like that. And I'm really sorry if it scared you. I'm a horrible person, I know, and I do-"

"No."

I could practically feel his smile through the stall door. "Thank god you're not some stranger that I'm just talking to awkwardly outside of a bathroom stall."

I giggled at that. 

Then I went back to my anxiety attack. Am I afraid of Connor? After what Zoe said he did. But he can be really nice and-

"...and stuff, right?" He asked. What did he ask? I missed the whole first part of his sentence.

"I-I don't really want to t-talk right now."

"Oh..okay. Um.."

I sighed. He did the same. I almost said I love you so I didn't sound too mean, but his footsteps faded and then the door opened and closed.

Connor POV

I stormed out of the bathroom and out of the building. Zoe was quick to chase me out. "Connor, what the hell?"

"Oh my god, what now?"

"Is Evan still in love with you after going off and crying? Did you save the day? Where even is he?"

Internally, I was screaming so loud I was sure Zoe had heard it outside my mind. I guess not.

Evan hates me, doesn't he? That's fucking fantastic. Cherry on top of an amazing day. A perfect day. Those kinds of days are only in songs from musicals. They don't happen in real life, huh.

Instead of retorting, I walked away from Zoe without a single word.