Broken But Not Alone

Chapter 10

Trigger warning
"Is it alright to bring you down to the infirmary?" Tony asked after looking at Peter's wrists.

Peter just nodded, he didn't want to talk.

"Bruce will probably be there, he usually is. Is that alright?" Tony asked helping Peter up off the floor.

He nodded tears still falling down his face.

Tony was right Bruce was in the infirmary he didn't really mind when they both walked in.

"Alright just sit up here, kid," Tony said patting the hospital bed that was in the room.

"What happened?" Bruce turned to Tony with worry on his face.

"He just needs cleaned up that's all," knowing that Peter wouldn't want him knowing to many details.

Peter was still crying he felt so weak crying in front of Bruce, the man he looked up to so much, not because he was the Hulk.

"Do you mind me doing this, Peter?" Bruce asked putting gloves on not waiting for a answer.

Peter nodded to say it was okay, he knew Bruce was a doctor and knew what he was doing more than Tony. Tony left saying to get him once he'd done. Bruce didn't judge Peter or think any less of him like Peter thought would happen.

Once Bruce was finished cleaning and bandaging up Peters wrists he took the gloves off and put them in the bin.

"So do you want to talk about this?" He asked calmly, sitting back in the stool in front of Peter.

"Not really," Peter said quietly looking at the floor and his feet and kind of everywhere else apart from Bruce.

"Okay but you've gotta go to Tony next time this happens or even me, okay? We just want what's best for you," Bruce said standing up and moving the stool back to where it was.

"Can I..ask you a question, Dr Banner?" Peter asked shyly.

"Yeah course," he turned to look at Peter.

"What do I do if I....if I feel like..doing it again but I umm..I can't talk to someone...like if I feel like..I can't?" Peter asked quietly.

"You've just got to distract yourself, try reading or drawing? I don't know what your thing is but just distract yourself when you feel the urge coming or being around people, even if your not talking it can help," he said with a small smile after he'd finished talking. "You're going to be okay. Do you want me to go get Tony?"

Peter nodded, whats he going to do? He's going to be so disappointed in me. Why did I do this? Why am I such a fuck up? Mr Stark doesn't care, all I do is bother him. Peter thought and he couldn't get any of it out of his head.

Tony walked in and Peter was crying again, he hated seeing him like this. He dragged the stool back over to the bed Peters on.

"Hey, kid." He smiled trying to keep his mood positive.

"I'm sorry Mr Stark. I'm so sorry," Peter started crying a little more.

"What for?"

"I didn't talk to you...I said I would," Peter looked down not making eye contact.

"It's not your fault okay? Just promise you'll talk to me next time. Or if it gets worse," Tony said, Peter was still crying, Tony stood up and sat on the bed next to him and put his arm around him pulling Peter into him.

"Yeah I'll try, I promise," Peter said crying into Tony's chest.

They stayed like that for a while until Peter calmed down. "I'm sorry," Peter said looking up at Tony.

"Don't be, it's going to take time to get through this but you will if you keep talking about it, telling people how you feel," Tony didn't judge him just like he didn't when he picked Peter up from the hospital.

"I'll try," Peter said trying to smile and wiping the tears away.

"Good. I'm always gonna be here for you just like May and your friends and I know Bruce will. You just got to realise your not as alone as you feel," Tony said he smiled back. "I might not understand this or why you do it but I'm not going to leave you alone in it."

"Thank you, Mr Stark." Peter didn't want to keep bothering him though.

"Come on let's go get dinner," Tony said standing up. Peter got up rolling his sleeves back down.

•

Dinner ended up being pizza. Peter and Tony went to pick it up talking about the things going on in Peter's life. He told Tony about when he started doing it he couldn't remember why. He didn't tell him that he'd thought about killing himself.

He told him about Travis and that he was bisexual, which Tony didn't mind. He was happy for him. He was glad he trusted him enough to tell him.

They got back and they ate their pizzas and watched a movie. Tony and Bruce finished their pizzas half an hour into the film.

"You gotta eat kid," Tony said seeing that Peter had only ate one slice.

"I'm not really hungry," Peter lied.

"Come on just one more slice," Tony knew he needed to eat more than that but knew it was better then nothing.

Peter just pulled the blanket over him more and got more comfortable.

"Don't push him," Bruce whispered into Tony's ear.

"Alright kid," Tony picked up the three pizza boxes and put the empty ones in the trash can and Peters on the counter incase he got hungry later.

•••

After a week an a half Peter said and showed that he was doing better, he was off school for spring break. He went to Ned's for the day, Mj was there as well, they hung out together all day. Ned's mom shouted saying that she'd made lunch for them and Mj ran down to get it.

"I knew your weren't gonna tell the truth with Mj was in the room but how are you doing with you know?" Ned asked quietly as his dad was in his office which was the room next to his.

"It's alright, kinda slipped up a week ago but I'm doing good," Peter wasn't sure why he said it but was glad he did.

"Was Tony alright with it?" Ned seemed worried. "Does he know it happened?"

"Yeah he knows and we just spoke about it for a while and then got pizza and watched a movie," Peter said purposely leaving out the part that he didn't eat the pizza.

Mj came back up with sandwich's and chips and they all went back to what they were doing.