SHADOW

Decisions

I sat on the edge of the bed, my hands set on top of my thighs. I was clad in all black boxer briefs and a sports bra. My hair was in a messy disarray. I'd have to do something about it later.

I stared out the window absentmindedly until I felt a hand slide up my back followed by a pair of arms wrapping loosely around my neck.

Me time didn't last all that long. A few days to be exact. After that I ended up right back in her bed.

Athena kissed the side of my face, trailing her lips down my neck where she sucked on the skin softly.

I was trying to do what Vlad said. I was trying to tap back into my humanity and feel things outside of my basic instincts. So far it wasn't working— I still felt nothing.

I imagine things like this didn't happen over night though.

"What're you thinking about?" she asked lifting her head from the crook of my neck.

"Nothing really."

She unraveled her arms from around my neck and opted to sit next to me. I eyed her, scanning over her figure lustfully, before I finally focused on her turquoise eyes.

"Can I tell you something?"

I nodded, my full attention on her.

"I didn't think I'd see you again."

"Why?"

"It's happened with other people and-"

I cut her off, "I'm not like other people."

She nodded, an apologetic smile on her lips, "Yeah, I know that now. I wasn't going to be mad if that's what happened. You're not entitled to me at all, but I was a little bummed because I really did want to get to know you."

"That's usually achieved by talking and we really haven't been doing much of that," I stated smugly.

"There's other ways to get to know each other besides talking. I'm learning what you like and what you don't." She paused, "Like I know you like when I swirl my tongue on the tip, or you like when I dig my nails in your back."

I narrowed my eyes at her, cocking my head. "I guess you're right."

She grinned, "Exactly."

The younger girl stood in front of me, only covered in a white thong and a thin cotton bralette, her nipples protruding out. I stood up, following her out of her bedroom and into the living room.

Her apartment was empty. Her roommate was gone for the most part. I had met him a few times and was pleased to figure out that he was as gay as they came. It worked in my favor because I wanted to be the only person that had access to her. She couldn't be used for my process but that didn't mean my possessiveness had dimmed at all.

She motioned for me to sit down and I did. I watched her curiously as she planted herself on my lap, straddling my hips.

"Why'd you bring me out here?"

"To talk."

I rose an eyebrow, "We could've talked in your bedroom."

"Yeah....but I don't know how to keep my hands off of you in there."

"Well, Athena, truthfully. I can fuck you anywhere in here," I said glancing around. "In your kitchen, in your bathroom, on this couch, anywhere really."

Her skin grew hot as she shifted on top of me, trying to reign in her arousal. That didn't work. I think she had forgotten what she was sitting on top of.