𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐢𝐧𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 ! ( 𝐅𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐈𝐄 )

chapter 3 : blue knuckles, red eyes

I never needed you like I do right now
I never needed you like I do right now
I never hated you like I do right now
'Cause all you ever do is make me cry
Couldn't hear the thunder, but I heard your heart race
Couldn't see the rain, we're too busy makin' hurricanes
Love ain't easy when it ain't my way
But it gets hard, when you ain't here makin' me crazy

Chapter 3: blue knuckles, red eyes 
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⚠️ WARNING: there is sexual assault in this chapter. i tend to write it in very descriptive, so if you are triggered by any of this sort, i ask you to skip over that part. ⚠️
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".. no matter how bitchy and annoying she is-"

his words replayed in my mind, over and over, to the point of torment.

why do i care so much?

why?

finn and i insult eachother on a daily basis. it's a normal thing.

but why does that particular hit me so hard? why does it hurt so much?

i sat in my english class, practically ripping my eyes out.

mr. jenkins was going on and on about nothing. why do i need to review sentence fragments when they taught this to me in 8th grade?

someone tapped on my shoulder.

i groaned silently and turned around.

it was noah, my very best friend.

don't get the wrong idea, noah is truly very gay, and he was like a brother figure to me. not like finn. like a brother, i mean.

i smiled and mouthed 'hi'.

"you okay brownie?"

he whispered.

"i'll tell ya later."

i exhaled, sadness filling my breath, and turned around to face the board, filled with sentence diagrams.

~ lunch ~

"so... baby cakes. what's new?"

my bubbly red head best friend plopped down right next to me on the creaking, ancient cafeteria bench.

"i wish i knew myself."
i huffed.

"wellllll, there's this guy in my gym class that asked me out last week. i've been waiting to tell you for like, ever."

sadie giggled, looking down into her lap and blushing.

"what??! no way, caleb? caleb mclaughlin? dude, you've liked him forever!! he's not just 'this guy', sadie!!"
noah exclaimed, nearly choking on his milk.

he was right. sadie had liked this guy named caleb for years.

at least one of my friends was doing well with relationships. unlike some people here.
shit, you're doing it again, millie. you're thinking about finn again.