You Changed My Life

8. Finished Upload

!WARNING! This chapter might be triggering!

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Songs for this chapter:

Happy Background Music- Darrel Balucos

Cut- Plumb

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Tyler's pov

I nearly finish editing my video and it's quite good. I hope my people will enjoy it. I edited out the last question because we never recorded it and I'm glad we didn't. It was truly horrible for what happened to Noelani when she was younger. Instead it's just the basic questions and others that help us know her and her personality. It's a fun little video.

I remember I never finished the ending so I quickly film it now. "Hi guys! Sorry we forgot to end the video so this is the ending! If you liked this video please give it a thumbs up! Subscribe if you haven't and check out Connor's channel! His links are below and so are Noelani's! Make sure to give them some love! For the last q and a click right here, for the last Friday video click write here! And to be my person of the week get something of mine and take a cute pic with it and you might be here next time! I hope you all have a fabulous life and yeah... Bye!" I wave and stop recording.

I quickly edit the ending into the video and start to upload it. As I wait for it to upload I make myself a coffee and look through my social media. I decide I would get my viewers excited on twitter. "Hey guys, new video up in ten minutes! Can we get #newtylervideo trending? I think y'all can do it!" I add the sassy looking emoji and send the tweet of to the world.

As the upload is nearly finishing off, Connor and Noelani walk in. "Tyler?" Connor calls.

"In here." I call back. They both walk in the living room with a smile on their face. Noelani seems really happy and she is clutching a teddy bear. "The stuffed toy is cute." I say giving her a smile. She smiles back and said that Connor had gotten it for her.

I look down at my laptop and see that the video has finished uploading. I now need to tweet to my people about it. I take out my phone and tweet "Hey Y'all! Here's a new video! Meet my new roommate! I hope you guys like it!" I tweet it and call them both over. They sit down either side of me and I click play to my new video.

"It's really good!" Connor says.

"I like it." Noelani says smiling at me.

"Are you sure you like it?" I ask her.

"Yeah I promise!" She then leans over and hugs me and jumps up. "I'm gunna get in my pjs" she says and she walks to her room.

Noelani's pov

I go into my room to get changed. My phone starts to buzz and I look to see that I have hundreds of tweets about the video I was in with tyler. I finish getting changed and then join the boys again. They are both sat on the couch, noses in their screens. I sit on the floor against the wall with my laptop. I open up twitter and start to scroll through my feed. I come across loads of tweets about me being in the video and they are all positive and I am thankful for it.

I decide I would check the comments on his actual video. I scroll through them until I get to a certain comment. I read it and it says: "Am I the only one that noticed her scars? She is obviously weak and worthless and she is using Tyler and Connor as support! She isn't even "pretty" she is ugly! Look at her, look at her scars. She is pathetic honestly."

I move on from the comment thinking nothing of it until their was a bunch of negative comments about me. They all say similar things as the first one and they get worse as I read through them. Tears start to spring in my eyes. "I'm going to bed now" I say as I slam my laptop down and run into my room. I close the door and fall onto my bed. I bury my face into my pillow and start to cry. I never did escape. The negativity and bullies are everywhere around me.

Their comments kept on running round my head, doing laps until they had a winner. I couldn't deal with their words. It's like me being back home. I go into the bathroom making sure I'm not heard. I lock the door and rummage through their cupboards and shelves looking for the thing I needed. I find it and I take out the blade. I hold it against my wrist and press down piercing my skin. Blood starts to slowly trickle down my arm and onto the floor as I lengthen the wounds. I cut four times in each wrist for four reasons:

1. I'm weak

2. I'm pathetic

3. I am a waste of space

4. I am just a girl covered in scars and bad memories.

I go to repeat myself when there is a knock on the door. "Noelani are you in there?" Tyler asks.

"Uh yeah just a second!" I shout. I quickly hide the blade and wipe up the blood with tissues. I pull down my sleeves and flinch slightly as the material clings onto my skin. I flush away the tissues and check to see if there is any more blood. When I'm sure there are no traces I unlock the door and open it. Tyler is stood there looking very worried. "Sorry I had to wash my face." I say and I slip past him.

"Okay?... Night." Tyler says as I close my door.

I quickly run over to my suitcase and pull out my medical kit. I find the bandages and cream and then I move over to my bed. I slide up both my sleeves but I had to hold my breath so I wouldn't let out a scream. I clean up all the blood and then added on the cream. It stung really bad and tears grew in my eyes. I whimper at the pain. "Come on Noelani, it's okay." I tell myself. I bandage up my wounds and decide it is good enough. I change my top because it had blood stains. When I have changed I go underneath my duvet and close my eyes.

I think about the boys and what they would say if they saw my wrists now. I have failed them. They were right infront of me so I could of talked to them! But my mind done what it always does, it makes me feel alone.

After overthink for about an hour I finally drift off to an unsettled sleep.

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A/N

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