You Changed My Life

75. Worrying About You

Connor's pov

Noelani hangs up on the skype call in tears. She looked so ashamed of herself and frightened that I would et angry with her. I call her mobile but she doesn't answer. I leave her text messages and still get nothing from her. Panic fills me as all I know is that she is in tears and frightened.

I need to know if she is okay but she is blocking everything I am trying to contact her on. I have tweeted to her, DM'ed her, Facebook messaged her. I've even tried skyping her again.

I hope she hasn't done something stupid. I mean I know she won't but I can't tell for sure. I can't say that she most definitely won't hurt herself but I can only believe that she is stronger than that.

The thing is, is that it's not even her fault about what happened to her last night... I don't even blame her! I know she was innocent as soon as she finished speaking.

It's my fault, I pushed Tyler to the edge and he got too obsessed with wanting her in that way. I pushed him to the point of him wanting to do something to her.. What if he is with her right now and he is hurting her again?

I decide to skype Tyler before I end up flying home with a gun in my back pocket. I need to know why he done it and his side of the story so then I can say that I was being fair. Lucky for me he answers.

"Tyler where the fuck is Noelani?! I know what you done to her last night and I am seriously not fucking happy with you! But she is ignoring all type of contact with me...

"She told me what happened and then she dropped out of our skype call. If there is more to what she has told me I will come back home. Tyler you better tell me the full story right now or I'm on the first flight back home!" I burst at him not even realising he is crying.

"Connor I am so sorry. I wasn't thinking properly... I just wanted to feel her touch... I hurt her and now she isn't even with me... She is no longer at home... She is with Troye and the O2L boys.

"I feel so bad. I went into her room to apologise like I told you I would but seeing her in her bed... It was like someone else taken over my body and my first intention was no longer important...

"I started kissing her when she was fast asleep and she reacted slightly because she thought it was you. I started to get rougher with her, kissing her more harshly and desperately and I wanted more of her. I did not knowing what I was doing and she still had her eyes closed as she was still half unconscious.

"She thought it was you and she kept on telling you to stop butting was me and I physically couldn't... I wanted her so desperately to kiss me back like how she kisses you and for her to do things with me...

"But I got angry when she wasn't doing what I wanted her to do so I started to hurt her stomach and she was crying in pain and she begged me to stop but I wouldn't listen to her.

"She was screaming my name as I kissed her neck, I was biting her leaving teeth marks and blood was raising to the surface of her skin. She was struggling underneath me but it felt good to have her move under me.

"She was literally begging me to stop... I could see the fear and pain she was in. But seeing her fear made me want her even more and I don't understand why because part of me was screaming at myself to stop what I was doing. But the other part of me was determined to make her mine...

"The boys came in after hearing her screams and they had to pry me away from her. I had hold of her hair and I nearly dragged her out of the bed as two of the joys pulled me off her.

"I could hear her screaming and panicking as Troye stayed and tried to comfort her. I could hear him fighting against her to keep her from hitting at him. I could sense her struggling in his arms as she wanted to escape someone's hold but he held onto her and she calmed down and was crying to him.