A Look Inside My Head

The Tunnel and the Light

There is a light at the end of the tunnel

If you know anything about cheesy sayings you will know this one. It's meant to be optimistic and uplifting. It means that no matter what is thrown your way you will make it out of there alive.

But no one ever talks about what is in that tunnel, only what is at the end of it.

In this one way tunnel are all the things you fear the most. Stress, anxiety, loneliness, doubt, disappointment, hell even spiders and clowns could be in that tunnel. After all it is your own personal purgatory.

But that purgatory can also be known as this little thing called life. With its ups and downs, loop d loops, dead ends and speed ways. Life is not a straight path like that dark tunnel. In fact, in reality that dark tunnel isn't straight either. You just imagine it as a straight path but its actually a fucking maze. That's why it takes so long to get to the end of it.

This dark tunnel is like a funhouse from your worst nightmares. All the worst case scenarios are held inside. "Enter if you dare!" is what a ring master would say. But you have no choice for there is only one way you can go and that is through it.

But don't worry you will go in and come out on the other side just fine. Well... maybe not in one piece because something in that tunnel is bound to break you even if it is just a little hairline fracture.

As you continue down your bright and carefree path you will come across yet another dark tunnel. But you see that bright white light at the end and know that it will be better on the other side so of course you walk through it. But just as before you come out a little more broken than before with new shitty experiences and memories that you will dwell on only causing those hairline fractures to crack even more.

For some that light at the end starts to dim and mesh in with the tunnel making it feel like its never ending.

But there always that one thing that knows how to change the lightbulb to brighten the path.

Boyfriend, girlfriend, pet, art, music, sports, you name it. Anything can be the difference in your little relief of the dark path. The trick is to hold onto it for as long as you can.

The tunnel is not meant to harm you or break you but somehow it does. Sometimes that all darkness ever brings. There are going to be many tunnels throughout life to test you and make sure you are ready to move on. And its ok if you have to stop a take a breather every once in a while to get through the darknesses torture. Just make sure you don't stay in there for too long.

There really is a light at the end of the tunnel. But there will always be another tunnel at the end of the light.