A Look Inside My Head

Shattered

Well it happened

The one pain I never wanted to feel. That suffocating pain that sits in your chest.

After two years it's finally over. The keeper of my heart crushed it. The first one to declare love reclaimed it.

I knew love was strong but I didn't think the break up would be stronger. What took two years to build came crumbling down in one night, in one text.

It's stupid, but I imagined my life with him. Never have I ever felt a love so strong for someone. I had never made the conscious effort to not talk to him and tell him about my day, until now.

It's crazy how someone's mood can change. It's like a light and a light switch. One second you're happy, and then with the flip of a switch sadness and pain.

I don't hate him for it. I don't think I could ever hate him. He was, is my first love and I could never hate him for allowing me to feel that.

We have come to the agreement to stay friends seeing as the both of us want to be in each other's lives. It just will take a while for me to come back and be myself again.

I will be fine with time. I just don't know how long it will take. I shall appear fine in public but will shatter to pieces in private.

I guess you really do risk tears if you let yourself be tamed.