『 truth or die + kth 』COMPLETED

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i dropped my hands and stared at her. she smiled at me and continued eating.

"i missed you, choyeon."

i dropped my gaze on the ground and i felt like i was in so much pain. the pain lingered between my chest and stomach, almost unbearable. tears were almost peeking at the edge of my eyes so i quickly stood up.

"i'll go to the restroom real quick."

she nodded her head and i quickly found my way outside. walking towards the back of the school and leaning towards the wall.

i held my chest and i winced.

"hey," i heard beside me.

i saw jungkook looking at me and he quickly approached me, holding my shoulders.

"did something happened?" he worriedly asked.

"c-choyeon? she's choyeon?" i asked, tears threatening my eyes.

jungkook stopped and looked in to my eyes, expressing and asking if i know who she was.

"she is." he sighed.

i heaved a sighed along with my tears.

"when did she come back?" i asked randomly, basing on taehyung's statement back then.

jungkook hesitated for a moment, "two years ago."

and that's when it hit me.

was i a substitute? did he push me away because she was already there? did he think all along i was her?

or worse,

did he made love with me, pretending i was her?

i stopped my tears and looked at jungkook, who seemed so sorry. his head was low and he looked like he didn't want to spill these soon.

"who is she to him?" i asked.

"someone special." he said, as we walked towards under the tree.

we stayed silent because i know it wasn't jungkook's job to explain it to me.

"he said he loved me."

maybe she was really special.

because he never said he loved me.

was that why he just easily let me go? was that why he never really appreciate and rejected my feelings?

because he never really liked and loved me.

because i was just a substitute.

why was he acting last time like that then? why did he act as if he owned me, like he liked me, like he still wanted me?"

"why do you hate her?" i asked jungkook.

he looked at me and scoffed, "i don't."

"you obviously do." i laughed and he rolled his eyes.

"i just don't feel her." he shrugged.

we both stood up and went over our next class. unfortunately, she was my classmate again and jungkook sat in the back, knowing she was planning on sitting beside me.

she happily sat beside me and nudged me that i didn't come back but it was okay.

she smiled and pulled out her notebook again when the professor went in.

i stared at her.

i couldn't hate her.

it wasn't her fault.