It was like red ribbons streaming down my arms. The pain all washed away with the tide. How many pills is enough to make me never wake. How can no one see such a simple thing, or do they see it but just ignore. I want to ignore that voice in my head.
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My eyes fluttered open. I toppled to the hard ground. The cold air slapped me. The emotions gravitate back to me in planets, I felt all the memories returned to me at once, it's to much.
I cried on the healing bay floor. It was dark and cold. Why couldn't I just have died, why would they want to save me, I'm worth nothing and I would be better off being dead.
I just want to die, why can't I just die, it's better if I die.
My legs were like jelly as I tried to stand, my bare feet were cold on the floor. Why did they save me.
My mind was clouded. I kept falling as I ran to the kitchen. Drowning didn't kill me but I knew what would.
I stumbled into the kitchen. My hands feverishly scratching for something. I savagely Lee thrust open draw after draw looking for something. My hand was cut up as I plunged it into the knife draw, success. I blindly Scoured the draw for a blade. My hand wrapped around the end of a kitchen knife.
I fell to the floor. My knuckles white against the handle. I brandished it over my wrist.
I took a breath and let all the sorrow flow out. I started slicing, I was blindly cutting. I didn't care if I cried out because the faster it was the deeper it went. Cuts peppered my arm. blood stained my arms and legs. It was on the knife and all over the floor. Gushing out like a water fall. Ribbons of red trail out of my wrist.
I couldn't force any tears out. I tossed the knife to the floor. I let the blood drip down my hands.
But this pain wasn't enough.
My head throbbed as stumbled to my room.
I trail of blood dripping on the floor after me.
I threw open my door. I cleaned before I left for the beach. My suicide note was sitting neatly on my pillow.
I couldn't see through my own salty tears and I kept gasping for air. I was trying to find my pills. My fingers closed around the bottle.
I poured almost all of them out into my hand. They mixed with the blood on my hand. I let out one last gasp before I tilted my head back and swallowed all of them.
I choked and gaged from dry swallowing them. The metallic taste of my blood stained them.
The world started to spin around me, my heart beat felt inconsistent and the black was everywhere. I tried to yell out fro the others but my door was closed. And the darkness caught up to me.
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———————————————————————- Keith p.o.v
I needed to go back and check on Lance. It was rude of me just to bolt away like that. The castle seemed darker than normal, like something bad was about to happen and we were missing it.
