I'm Not Her

Chapter 19

Sooyoung locks herself up in her room, not knowing what to do, her heart and mind in a mess. No one, not even Wendy can open her up.

"Sooyoung-ah, please open the door."" Wendy knocks for the nth time today. The girl hasn't been eating for three days and knowing how weak her body is, she goes worried. "Sooyoung please, at least eat something. You know your body is not suited for this."

Chanyeol comes rampaging in front of her door. "All right, that's it. PARK SOOYOUNG, IF YOU DON'T OPEN THIS DOOR, I'LL FREAKING OPEN THIS MYSELF!" his deep voice rings around the house but still no answer with a few tugs on the door, Chanyeol breaks it down, causing him and his wife to gasp at the scene.

Sooyoung is lying unconscious on the floor, looking so pale and so thin, there are long scratches on her arms and legs with dried blood on them.

"Sooyoung!" Chanyeol runs to his younger sister and carries her immediately in both arms. "Call the hospital and get the car ready."

"The hospital is already notified." Wendy answers and fetches the car keys as fast as she could.

Not wanting to leave his sister, Chanyeol sits at the back, Sooyoung still in his arms. Wendy could see from the rearview mirror how the tears start to form in his eyes. She knows that he's reliving the horror of the time when Sooyoung first hurt yourself.

"This is not your fault Chanyeol-ah." Wendy tries her best to comfort her husband.

Chanyeol sniffles. "Yes it is. I shouldn't have let them meet in the first place. I knew the truth. But I was so desperate to help her get better that I didn't realize what damage I may cause."

"Chanyeol, listen to me. Sooyoung needs you to be strong right now. Do you hear me?" Wendy says in a strong voice. "Man the fuck up. We need to be strong for her. Understand?" the boy nods at his wife, his arms tight around his baby sister.

Wendy calls the nurse and Chanyeol immediately lays Sooyoung down on one of the beds in the emergency room. One of Wendy's colleagues tells them to stay outside as they try to stabilize the girl.

"Maybe we should tell her friends." Wendy suggests to her husband who nods weakly. "I'll text the girls."

After an hour, seven boys and four girls comes running to Wendy and Chanyeol with a boy looking as weak as Sooyoung does.

"How is she?" Irene asks the couple right away.

Wendy holds the girl's shoulder. "They're still stabilizing her, she hasn't been eating for three days and she..." she pauses and looks at the pale boy at the back of everyone. "Her condition returned."

Sungjae bites his lip stopping himself from crying again, knowing that everything is his fault and now Sooyoung began hurting herself again because of him, how could he ever forgive himself?

"Condition? What condition?" Yeri looks confused.

Wendy smiles sadly. "I'm sorry. As her doctor, I'm not allowed to tell you anything."

"Her doctor? Aren't you a psychiatrist?" Seulgi asks, she gets a nod as an answer and slowly understands.

Chanyeol suddenly walks towards the two eldest boys. "Would you mind accompanying me to get some food for everyone?"

Eunkwang and Minhyuk looks at each other. "Of course."

Everyone else sits down on the stools provided. Sungjae chooses to sit farthest from his friends. He wanted to be alone but he doesn't want to leave without knowing Sooyoung's condition.