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16 months ago

"Gray," she whispered as I held her small body in my arms,
"It'll be okay Evangeline,"
"Why do you call me that?"
"Call you what? Evangeline? That's your name," his deep voice sent shivers down my spine.
"Most people call me Eve..."
"I like Evangeline," she tilts her head upwards to look at my face and I lose all control. I softly place a kiss on her lips as my eyes close. Fireworks erupt throughout my body, I'm in love with her. Have been since the moment I laid eyes on her. She kisses me back for a few seconds before she pulls away. "I'm so.."
"Don't speak," she hushes me and lifts my t shirt over my head...

Evangeline - present

I crawl into bed, I can feel my puffy eyes not getting any better. I had no tears left in me. I pulled the picture of my little family out from underneath my pillow, that tiny crumpled picture, slightly faded long before it's time, held in my fist every single night, tear stained from every single tear. The tumultuous silence of the room scared the living hell out of me.

    "Gray?" I murmured almost silently, mascara had left tracks down my cheeks, I should have cleaned up for him. His head snapped up towards me expectantly, he was going to sleep on the couch or at least he was laying wide awake on the couch.
"Evangeline," he whispered, standing. Slowly but not reluctantly I walked towards him and fell into his arms as he held them open for me.
"I'm sorry,"
"I promise you Evangeline, my Evangeline, that baby it's not mine, since that night with us, I've never slept with another woman." With one finger he tilted my chin to look at him,
"I believe you," his eyes lit up and he smiled,
"Thank god, I'm not going to lose you. I'll never make a single mistake to hurt you and I never have," I kiss him softly.
"I know, I'm sorry I was just... hormonal," he smiled and shook his head almost laughing. He didn't get it.

Gray

I woke up and prayed to god yesterday was all just a dream but I knew it wasn't. The bright sun beamed through the window, illuminating the beautiful face of my soon to be wife.  I just needed to sort out this mess and deep in the pit of my stomach I knew Castael was involved. I just had to figure out how. I stared over at Evangeline, the picture tightly in her clenched fist and her hand resting on her stomach. That made my heart skip a bit. I missed her bump. I missed my boys inside her wriggling around. Gently I moved her hair aside from her beautiful neck and kissed all the way up to her to luscious lips, her eyes slowly flicking open,
"Good morning baby," I whispered, she smiled and then anguish took over her face as she recalled yesterday. "I'm sorting that shit today," she smiled again,
"What date is it today?"
"The 13th, oh my god," I whispered under my breath, it's her birthday. "Happy birthday baby, let's go for breakfast!" But she shakes her head, "Can we just stay here?" She snakes her arm around my neck and kisses me, I nod smiling pulling her closer into me and it isn't long before we become one yet again.

Evangeline

"Eve!" The knocking on the door came at the perfect time, not too early which I was extremely glad about!  Quickly I open the door and Beau comes rushing through holding a small pink box, "happy 21st!" She pushed the box towards me, long and slim.
"Thanks beau but you didn't need to get me anything," I smiled softly at her.
"Open it!" She shouted giddily, I pulled the lid off the box to reveal a beautiful bracelet with my boys names on engraved into the silver and the words... too beautiful for Earth...  before I knew it warm wet tears fell onto the box, Beau stared at me, "is it too soon?" She'd calmed down but I shook my head pulled her into me, my beautiful boys forever on this gorgeous bracelet. Without thinking I rest my hand over my flat stomach and let out a small smile, "you miss it huh?" Then she eyes me again "oh my god you're.." I slap my hand over her mouth
"Beau shut up," I say in a hushed whisper,
"Then why? Why slap me?!" I shake my head,
"Me and gray had a massive fight last night,"
"I know, thin walls remember?" I smile sympathetically,
"Sorry,"

  "Well hellooo Grayson," Beau whistled as a shirtless Gray walked into the living room and I blushed slightly at the sight, he was fit. I rolled my eyes at her and he wrapped him arms around my waist, kissing my neck. "So what did you get her for her birthday?" His gaze dropped to the floor before moving to the kitchen and starting to crack eggs into a pan,
"He's here, that's all I need," suddenly i gagged over the smell of the eggs and Beau glared at me, my eyes pleaded with her,
"Erm Grayson, sorry before you start cooking breakfast could you take a look at the light in my bathroom? It wouldn't come on this morning," he glanced my way and I nodded quickly before he shrugged and followed her. I ran to the bathroom and once again my knees connected with the tile floor.

16 months ago

"Gray," She whispered, her warm breath against my face,
"Oh god, Evangeline..." I turned to face her, her eyes wide and staring,
"What have I done?" She turned her head away from me pulling the covers up over her naked body, she regretted it. Guilt pranged inside me, consuming me. I loved her. I was in love with her. I made love to her. And she regrets everything but of course she does! She's with Castael she's always been with him.
"I'm so sorry," I mutter under my breath but i don't mean it, I loved every second of making her scream my name, feeling her body arch to be closer to me, holding her as she fell asleep in my arms.
"This wasn't you, it was me," she almost choked out holding back tears, quickly I leapt to my feet forgetting I hadn't any clothes on and she let out a laugh before shutting her mouth, softly biting on her bottom lip. Maybe, just maybe she didn't regret it as much as I thought.

6 weeks later (present)

Evangeline

A knock at the door woke me from my nap, I was exhausted and could hardly keep my eyes open.
"Beau just let yourself in,"
"It's Alexa," a voice mocked from the other side of the white wooden door, my heart dropped.
"Go away,"
"I have the results of the paternity test, thought you might want to see," I leapt off the couch and almost ran to the door, whipping it open to see a no longer pregnant Alexa. A small blue car seat in her arms. She smiled at me and turned the car seat so I could see the tiny baby inside. My already sunken heart stared at this little baby boy, my boys. My boys danced throughout my head,
"Well?" I attempted to demand but my voice came out croaky, she handed me an envelope and I shut the door.
"Don't you want me to come in so we can discuss it? It's getting cold out." I rolled my eyes tearing at the paper.
"Go away, it's not cold," I snapped. I looked down at the papers...

4 years ago

I stood in front of the coffin being lowered into the cremation chamber, no tears fell. I had no more left to cry. I felt torn, like half of me had been ripped away, it had. I glanced around the room to see only a few people stood around me, her boss, two work colleagues and our headteacher. My eyes darted to the back of the room where I spotted him, stood there once again in his uniform, he smiled a small smile at me before I turned and the coffin had gone. Quickly i darted through the door and into my car, I couldn't take anyone apologising for my loss. She was all I had left, I was completely alone now.