Love Me Bitterly Loath Me Sweetly

Chapter 31 *Graduation and New Exploring Is Around The Corner* Orihime

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May 2006

"I'm sorry. I think yo__"

"Why!" He roared.
"Because you deserve better."

A sad smile appeared on his lips. "The problem is not that I deserve better . . . It's just that you think you deserve less."

"Even if I said yes . . . I'm only going to hurt you, and me, and yachiru."

"Don't you love me?"

"I do! I really do, but__"

"But what?" He yelled and I took a step back.

"I-It's the same kind of love that I have for my friends . . ." I looked up in his eye. If there's any hope, he think he has, my eyes will tell him the truth. "I'm so sorry, Kenpachi-San."

And then, I felt his lips on mine. My eyes widen as he pressed his lips and asked for my permission. That was it for me to register that what was happening. I felt his arms around me and my back hit a tree. I tried to push him away, but he was too strong and heavy. My eyes brim with tears. . . He took that opportunity and forced his tongue inside my mouth. I felt his teeth smashed against mine, it became clumsy, overbearing,  demanding me to kiss him back. When I didn't he loosen my kimono with his hands.

I slide my head to the left that successfully broke the kiss, "S-stop." but he didn't stop, I became cold and I realized distantly that I have began to shake. . . He kissed my neck, pressing his tongue, kissing that spot and then biting it. "Please stop!" I was terrified at what has gotten into him. Muttering all the strength in my body I pushed him away and with reflex my hand hit against his face.

He touched his right side of his face where I slapped him. "Something that you forgot teach me, Kenpachi-San!" Pain shoots up in my heart. A gasp, possibly a sob.

His eyes are on mine. Those kind eyes that he has only shown me, but now full of regret. He seem to understand how much it pained me at what he did. He took a step in my direction to reassure, but I turned away putting my hand in protest. I don't think that I have it in me to hear his convincing.

My heart ached in pain, still trembling with confusion and shock. . . I wiped at my tears and tightened my Kimono around my waist, when it was in it's right place, I turned back to look at him, but he was looking down at the grass, his expression somber. "Will you apologize or are we going to drag this up?"

He looked up instantly and gave a look that seemed to suggest he had not understood me.

But he bowed down anyways. "I'm so sorry Hime. Trust me, this will never happen again." He threw his hands. "I don't know what has gotten into me."

I felt relieved. "It's okay."

"You forgive me just like that." He frowned. "Why?"

I put my hand to my head. "Why can't you be satisfied without asking that?"
He gave me a faux-apologetic smile.

I stared at the grass for a moment and took a breath. "I had done the same when I confessed." I felt his eyes on me, but i didn't raise mine to meet his. "The only difference was that he had kissed me back."