Not Alone

Part 5

I wake up and see that I was alone. I guess I was really expecting my mom to stay this time after everything that happened last night but I guess not. I go out the room and go to the bathroom to do my morning routine when I smell something coming from the kitchen. I look there and I see my mom cooking.

"Mom?" I ask.

"Oh good morning honey. I was going to let you sleep in a bit more while I make breakfast but if you're up and hungry we can eat right now. Breakfast will be ready soon," she says.

I smile. She hadn't left after all. I wish Isla was alive to witness this. My smile disappears as I think of Isla. Oh how much I miss her already. Last night I could barely sleep because all I was thinking of was how much I wished she could be alive. I kept tossing and turning but I tried my hardest not to since I was going to wake my mom up.

"Are you thinking about her?" she asks.

"Yeah," I say.

"I wish I could have been a better mother. I realized that I haven't cooked anything for you guys ever since the separation. I really wish I could change things," she says.

"Me too but there's nothing we can do about it. She's gone now and we are still here I guess," I say.

"I promise I'm going to try my best to be the mom I was before. I might not be perfect but I'll try. I'll do anything I can for your happiness," she says.

"Thank you Mom. I love you," I say.

"I love you too. Now go get ready and we can it," she says.

"Okay," I say.

I leave the kitchen to go to the bathroom and I do my morning routine. Before I go to the kitchen I go into Isla's room. It was very clean because she was always so neat with everything and hated when one thing was out of place. I look around a little until I see something.

An envelope was sitting on her desk. I open it and read what it said:
Dear Destiny,
By the time you're reading this I'll either be dead or be running away just please don't come looking for me if I'm still alive. I know I said you need to live life and everything but I just couldn't handle it anymore. I found this amazing guy and we fell in love and that's when I knew I couldn't take it anymore. I wanted to be with him more than anything else in the world. I didn't want to have to meet him in secret everyday, scared to death and hoping we wouldn't get caught. That's when I knew I had enough. We planned to run away. We didn't know where we were going to go or if we were going to get caught but at that point we didn't care. I just want you to know I love you so much sis and please don't do what I did. Live your life like I actually told you too and be careful. Also, tell mom that I still love her so much too. I wish the best for you in life Pride. If anything happens to me, don't worry about it okay? I'll be fine wherever I am. Continue your life. I love you so much, never forget that.
                                                    Love,
                                                     Isla

After I finish reading the letter, I let out all my tears. So she knew this was going to happen? That's now done she was? I wish she told me before. I wish I had stopped complaining about my life and sometimes listened to her complain. Maybe I could have helped her then. This was all my fault.

"Destiny? Are you coming honey?" I hear my mom yell from the kitchen.

I pick up the letter and wipe my eyes then go to the kitchen.

"Destiny where-" my mom starts to say but she cuts herself off when she sees me.

"What happened honey?" she asks.

"This is all my fault. She basically killed herself," I say.

"What? What do you mean?" she asks.

I give her the letter and reads it. I see tears start to form in her eyes and soon they fell.

"Oh Isla. Why couldn't I have been there for you," she says after reading the letter.

"It's my fault. If I had listened to her more I could have probably helped her but I was always the one complaining and she would listen to me and help me out. If I hadn't been so selfish this probably wouldn't have happened!" I say as more tears fall.

"No, you can't blame this on yourself! You didn't know this was going to happen. Now wipe away your tears. Remember what she said? She doesn't want us mourning over her so we are going to make her last wish come true okay?" she says wiping away her own tears.

"Okay," I say.

But I knew that was going to be impossible.