Not Alone

Part 11

I walk home and it was as if everything that happened in the part couple of hours hit me again. My sister was alive, my mom may or may not know right now, I was gone for a whole night, and I kissed my best friend. Everything was going great.

When I get home I see the door wide open. I quickly go inside and I see there was no one there. There was nothing. No paper saying where my mom was or anything. I got really worried. I go into the room and what I see next breaks my heart. The room was empty. The closet was empty. There was nothing there. Just the furniture and a note on the desk. I take the note and read it:
Dear Destiny,
I can't explain and I don't have long but I'm really sorry I had to leave you, especially when everything was finally getting better. I really wish I could tell you why but I can't. I love you hun. I hope one day you'll forgive me.
                                                    Love,
                                                    Mom

As if the day could get any better. She left me. For who knows what reason she left me. At this point, I couldn't cry anymore. My eyes were sore from crying so much and it was as if I had no more tears left to cry. I try to think of all the possibilities of why she would leave me but nothing comes. Everything was so perfect a bit ago and now everything was falling apart. How can everything change from good to bad so quick?

I go to my room and I felt like a robot. I felt like I had no control over my body. I felt like zombie. I see someone come into my room.

"Dess?" she says.

Isla.

"Leave me alone," I say.

I hear her footsteps getting closer to my room and she walks in.

"Dess what's wrong?" she asks.

"What's wrong? I'll tell you what's wrong. I think my sister is dead then I find out months later that she's actually alive then my relationship with my mom finally starts getting back to normal but I come back and I see that she's left me. That's what's wrong," I say. I leave out the part about Shawn because I didn't want her knowing.

"Wait what do you mean mom left?" she asks.

"She left a note that she's gone now and she took all her clothes and everything," I say.

"What in the world. Why? That makes no sense," she says.

"Yeah no kidding," I say.

"Sis I'm really sorry about everything especially leaving you but I promise everything will get better now. I'm back and we can go back to how we were living before all that," she says.

"Yeah I've heard a lot of promises," I say.

"Yeah but this one's real. Trust me," she says.

"But what about mom?" I ask.

"Well that's her loss. She lost a beautiful and amazing daughter and it's no one else's fault but hers so we just have to deal with it," she says.

"You think we can do it?" I ask.

"Yeah," she says.

"Can I trust you this time?" I ask.

"You can," she says.

"Okay," I say.

"Now come here," she says motioning for me to hug her.

I hug her but it just made me remember something. Shawn. It made me miss his hugs. Isla's hugs were amazing and they made me feel happy but Shawn's hugs were different. Shawn's hugs made me feel complete. They made me feel warmth and happiness and like nothing was wrong with the world. It made me feel like we were the only two people in the world and everything was perfect. And now, I would most likely never see him again because of a stupid kiss because it would probably be awkward and more dangerous since we both know now that we have feelings for each other.

"I'm going to go onto the rooftop a little okay?" I say after a while.

"Okay. Don't wait long though it's getting kind of cold," she says.

"Don't worry. I have a sweater anyway," I say.

"Okay," she says.

I go up the rooftop and start staring out. That's when I notice a figure on the rooftop across from mine behind the gate.