Dear Journal,
Wow, that sounds so weird but I said I'd do this. I've never really been big about the concept of keeping a journal but Mom said it'll help me get things out in the open. It's silly really because she's always called me her open book. She has always been able to "read me" so that's where that name came from. I'm not really sure what to write about. My thoughts? My observations? My life? How about my life, that's sounds like a good part to start at. What can I say about me really? My name is Bella Swan and I am just an ordinary teenager from Phoenix. Actually, that's probally not right. I'm an old soul really. Well, I'm not exactly into the things that most tenenagers are into. For instance I would rather go antique shopping than shopping in a mall for the newest fashions anyday. I love listening to old records and watching classic movies. And on a night when a lot of people would like to be out doing something, I am perfectly content reading a good book. Always into reading the classic books and feeling the characters pain and emotion as if it were my own. Knowing I belonged in that era but being in this one. I'm hoping to one day finally fit in with the ones around me. No one is quite the same way as I am. I feel like no one understands me and they all think I act to old for my age. Mom calls we her "middle aged" child because of this but I don't mind. I enjoy being different in that way.
Romeo and Juliet is the best play I have ever read. Oh to be her and have a love as pure and true as Romeo.
Did my heart love till now? Forswear it, sight! For I ne'er saw true beauty till this night."
- William Shakespeare
To be in love like that must be truly amazing. I am hoping to one day find that in my life. To have a man as brilliant and deep as Romeo. He always knew the right things to say not because it would make Juliet happy but because it's what he felt in the depth of his soul, his heart, for her.
But that's just fiction right? Something that a great man such as Shakesphere, has written for entertainment. I however, as complicating as I am feel like there is more to it. Not just Romeo and Juliet but alot of the classic books out there. They had to be based on real, genuine people at some point. I guess you can call me a "deep" person. Maybe I look into things too much and should accept them for what they are, what they're worth but that's just not me. I believe in soul mates as silly and absurd as that may sound. I know there is that one man out there for me and I plan to find him someday, but not in Forks.
Oh did I forget to mention that? Charlie,(my dad) lives in a small town named Forks in Washington. I'm going to be moving in with him soon to let my Mom and her boyfriend Phil have some alone time. We move around alot because he wants to play for a minor league baseball team, so I decided to live with Charlie until they get settled in. I'm not looking forward to it but I'd never tell Renee that, I want her to be happy and I know she will be.
Well, I must admit this has been fun. I enjoy writing about my inner most desires and feelings without actually having the embarassment of talking to Mom about it. I usually just get all flustered, my face turns red and I mumble not knowing exactly what to say. I'm off with Mom to Yoga class, one of her crazy ideas.
~Bella~
