Just a Little Bit of Love, Barrels, and Horses

Chapter 22

I cough and they pull apart and Alec looks at me with wide eyes. "McKenna.." Alec starts but I put up my hand.

"Don't Alec. Cut the crap. I knew a guy like you wouldn't stay. I knew you'd break my heart. And you just proved my theory right," I say starting to walk away. Then he grabs my hand. I tense up and turn around and slap him. "Never touch me again," I say with gritted teeth.

"I'm sorry okay? It's just I knew you wouldn't hold out.." He trails off.

"What?" I ask confused. He sighs.

"I knew you wouldn't have sex with me," he mumbles shame in his eyes. I slap him again.

"You ass! You were gonna hook up with her because you knew I wasn't going to have sex with you!" I shout.

"Keep you voice down. And it's not just that," he says.

"What is it Alec? Am I not pretty enough? Am I not skinny enough? We'll guess what! I don't give a rats ass what you think of me!" I shout steaming.

"No! It's just I never really understood how broken you were until I saw you today. I can't handle that I just can't," he says running his hands through his hair.

"I can't believe you. I thought you were different. I really thought you were," I say.

"I'm sorry," he whispers.

"Whatever," I say turning around. Then I hear her.

"Babe. Come here let's finish this in the trailer," she says seductively. I turn around and grab her ear and drag her until I find a cowboy.

"Here take this slut. I'm sure she will be a quick half hour hook up and you'll be set," I say literally pushing her into his arms. I turn around and hear her.

"So what event do you do?" She asks. I shake my head. Frickin buckle bunnies. I go back to the trailer and saddle up Dakotah because bull riding is almost over. I hear jake walking up behind me.

"Hey congrats!" He says.

"Thanks," I say bluntly. He notices my strange mood.

"What's wrong?" He asks his voice filled with concern.

"Nothing," I say.

"No there is. Don't keep it bottled up McKenna. Just tell me," he says.

"Don't make a big deal out of it okay?" I ask.

"Okay," he says. I take a big breath.

"Alec cheated on me. We're over. He says that I'm to broken and that he knew I wouldn't have sex with him," I say. I see jakes fist clench and I immediately grab them. "Calm down. It's okay," I say.

"No it's not! You have been through so much and after what happened today he has the nerve to cheat on you!" He yells.

"I'm going to go. And you calm down," I tell him. I get on Dakotah and walk away. I go to the warm up arena and trot circles. Then I hear my name. Up now is Danielle Piche, on deck Abby Nagel, and in the hole and concluding our pole bending event is 2 time state champ McKenna O'Brien!" The announcer announces. I watch Danielle's run a 23.213. Good time since this arena is so big. I watch Abby's run and she is a 24.132. Now when Dakotah goes up to the gate she is crow hopping like crazy. She wants to run. When I make sure we are ready to go I let her run. We run straight down and I crank her around and weave her through the poles. I weave back and crank her but nick the pole. I look back and it's up! I kick her and she is booking it. I look at the clock and it's a 21.370! I pat her good girl and then I realize I'm going to worlds for pole bending! I'm so excited I don't even notice the glare that Danielle is shooting at me. When I go back to the trailer I hear voices.

"I said I was sorry!" Alec yells.

"Sorry isn't good enough! All the shit that she has been through, and you pull what you did! I can't believe you!" Jake shouts.

"Guess what? I could care less. I'm sure she's faking it anyways!" Alec shouts. What the hell how could I fake it. Did he NOT see the fight I had with my sister?

"Fake it? Are you kidding me? Did you not see what happened today? Then you tell her she's broken! She is lot broken! She is the strongest person I have ever met!" Jake yells.

"That's what I thought too! Until she came up to me crying saying her sister had sex in her bed. Like what's so bad about that?" Alec says. "And why do you care? Do you like her or something?" Alec asks. My heart immediately starts to beat. Did he like me? Then the answer that comes next completely and utterly scares me.

"Yes I do damn it!" He yells. Then I step on the other Side and they both gasp. Why does my life suck so much?