Psycho (Under Editing)

Chapter Twenty-Two ♪ May Twenty-Eighth

The next morning when Doc walked in, I was seated at the breakfast bar with a bowl of cereal. I looked normal, as if I didn't just spring clean the entire house.

"Good morning Babe." She greeted. "After you eat and shower we will have to leave for art therapy. I will be waiting for you outside by my the car in half an hour." With that she walked out, her sweet vanilla scent following after her.

That smell reminded me so much of Mel, it brought tears to my eyes. With the voice in my head I haven't had time to think about Mel, or Jake even. I haven't had time to grieve, or heal. I haven't even had proper silence, my head was always filled with loud thoughts and shouts.

"Go and get ready Babe." Gabby spoke, she didn't seem mad anymore, which to me was a good thing. Even though I didn't want to be controlled, I knew it would be the only way to keep myself and the people around me safe.

I washed my dishes and entered my room. Gabby had instructed me on how to decorate the room, I will admit that she had good taste.

My bed had simple white linen sheets and the study desk under the window was painted a grey blue colour. It all looked so bright and vibrant, much contrast to who I truly was. But I liked it. I liked the change, the poeticness of it all.

After my shower, with no interruptions I found myself staring at my cupboard. "Grab that black baggy shirt and bleached light blue jean shorts." I followed as she said.

After I changed she told me to leave my hair as is. I wasn't allowed to make any decisions about myself anymore. She was living her life through me, and out of fear and submission I was letting her do as she pleased.

I was too scared of Jess finding out about Wes. I haven't talked to Wes. I've even given his number a special ringtone so I know its him and that I shouldn't answer, though he only called twice and texted a few times.

I exited the house, my phone tucked safely in my pocket. Doc smiled warmly at me and we both got in.

I was hit with it again. Vanilla. Mel. Jake. Jess. Wes. I never thought that one simple smell could pull back so many memories that I tried tucking away. So I just fisted my hands and kept quiet.

"You are weak Babe. I don't know why you keeping hiding from your thoughts. You can't be this weak all the time. You can't keep doing this. Tell my why you are hiding? Tell me what got you so scared to think?" I froze, I couldn't believe that she just asked me that question. She knew why, she was in my head.

"Tell me!!!!!" She shouted, causing me to wince. Doc saw this, but instead of asking if I was okay, she began observing. Just like all the other therapists. They watched and then told you how you should live your life. I didn't need that from two people. As it is, I had it from Gabby, the annoying voice in my head.

"Why are you so scared?" She whispered in a low demonic whisper. A sudden rush of adrenaline shot through me. My heart hammered painfully against my ribcage. It wanted out from my messed up shell of a body. Just like I did.

"Answer me."

"It's because of you!" I shouted out, grabbing my hair and tugging at it. I needed a distraction. Hot tears spilled over my cheeks. The salt burning a little on my cracked lips.

I was shaking violently. I couldn't stop thinking of all the bad memories, it was as if Gabby finally got me to do what she wanted, as if she stepped away and allowed all the bad thoughts to flow through.

I hadn't noticed that car had already stopped. I hadn't noticed that I was being pulled out of the car, I hadn't noticed that a giant needle was stabbed right into my thigh.

But when I did, my vision blurred and I saw black. As if I was still awake, but dead at the same time. And in the silence I heard Gabby whisper. "It's for your own good." And the more she whispered it, the faster she got and the more her words changed.

Her voice deepened, my fear elevated. "Welcome back my love. Let us finish what I had started." Jake. The darkness slowly cleared away, there he was, walking over to me with a knife in his hand, and the only thing covering him was a towel.

I looked down at myself, I was bare again. But I was relaxed even. I was enjoying it. He smirked at me, I felt a tiny flutter in my heart, of fear or lust? I didn't know anymore. "You know I love you, so so much Babe. You wouldn't even imagine." I felt myself sigh out joyfully.

"I love you too ... Jess." Not realizing the name I had just said, I closed my eyes, feeling a little dizzy, but when I opened them again I tried to look back up at him. Jake was gone, but Jess was there. The knife was gone, and the scenery changed. I was lying next to Jess on the sand.

My body soaked from head to toe by water. We were at the beach. I frowned, where did Jake go? I looked around frantically, trying to get up, but for some odd reason I felt a strain. Jess chuckled, moving to help me.

"Careful love, you are going to hurt her." I looked back up and saw, Jake's brown eyes, Jake's blonde thinning hair and his crooked grin as he helped me up. I waddled over to a sink, now in a huge bedroom, and there I was. Well there she was, another me, a me that was pregnant and... happy?

A me that I hated.

I gasped, waking up and rolling off the bed. I was in a small tiny room, a bed, an attached bathroom toilet and a door with a tiny window.

Where am I?

♪Author's Note♪

Wazzup peeps, it's your girl El♥ here. Sorry for the late update, being experiencing some writers block lately.

I hope you are enjoying the story as much as I do when I write it. Do leave comments if you think something should be changed.

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♪Questions♪

1. Where do you think she is?

2. What do you think that dream meant?

3. Do you think Jess will find out?

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