Love At First Hate

Chapter 30 ~ A Broken Healed Heart

*Laurens POV*

"What do you mean its Zayn!?" I threw my hands in the air. I grabbed my jacket and got my dad's car keys.

"Please please come Lauren. Its getting worse!" He yelled as he choked on his tears I guess. Some voices were heard then he hung up and I got in the car.

My heart was beating rapidly and I pulled up to Zayns house. Goosebumbs ran over my body at the memories here. I didn't bother turning off the car and ran to the backyard. My hair flying everywhere.

I opened the gate and my breathe went away at the sight.

"ZAYN GET DOWN!" Liam cried as Harry tried to bring him down. Never had I seen their eyes this red and teary.

I made eye contact with Zayn and he loosened his grip from the knife that was pointed towards his stomach. His eyes were darker, his black t shirt was wrinkled and his eyes were puffy.

"ZAYN!" I yelled as tears ran down my cheeks. Harry turned around and then looked back at Zayn.

"ZAYN GET DOWN YOURE DRUNK!" Harry cried as he kicked a garbage can.

"IM NOT DRUNK ENOUGH TO KNOW THAT MY MOM IS IN THE HOSPITAL AND THAT MY SISTER IS DEAD! DEAD! EVERYTHING I LOVE IS GOING AWAY!" HE cried as he pulled onto his hair.

My heart pounded faster and my head spun. I looked around and spotted a ladder. I whispered to Harry to keep Zayn distracted.

I wiped my tears and took the ladder with me as I ran to the opposite side of where Zayn stood.

My hands shook in terror as I placed the ladder leaning against the building. I could still hear the shouts from Liam and Harry, it's was such a horrible scene.

I climbed up as quickly as I could, shaking at every step I took, fear. Fear was the perfect word to describe me right now. Fear of falling. Fear of someone's death. Fear.

I made it to the top and began to walk towards Zayn who's back faced me. I almost slipped on the roof tiles and more tears ran down my cheeks. Heart pounding and I was out of breathe.

Butterflies were everywhere as I came nearer to Zayn who yelled so much horrid things to Liam and Harry, things he wouldn't say if he was sober.

He turned around and his eyes widened. "Go away." He cried as he pointed the knife towards me, taking a step back in fear and I held my hands up.

"Zayn you don't want to do this." I cried, my hands still up. His eyes were dark brown, not the usual chocolate ones. His hair flew one side as he shook his head.

"You know nothing. Go away. Everyone I love is leaving me." Tears ran down his cheeks.

I was about to give him a hug but he stepped back and pointed the knife towards me. There was a knot in my throat that was bigger than how afraid I was.

"Zayn, people love you a lot." I cried.

"No. My mom is in the emergency room, Safaa is dead! I don't need this! Its Its too much!" He stuttered.

"Zayn look at what you're doing. Be strong for your mom, be brave for Safaa, she's in a better place. Look at your friends, they love you and care for you. I love you." I cried as I moved my hair away. "ZAYN!" Harry yelled.

"No no you don't. If you did you would never have left me. If you loved me you should've said sooner. You left me too. I love you more than you ever will! Fuck Lauren why can't you see I love you! I love you. I love you. I love you. All I ask is you love me back!" He cried as he sat down and threw the knife to the ground. He covered his eyes and sobbed on the ground.

He loves me? Zayn loves me? He admitted it. But he's drunk, but drunk people say the truth. Seeing him like this broke me more, but with the words that escaped his mouth it was magical. Like a bandaid over my broken heart.

But I have Logan, and Zayn loves me?

"Zayn."

"Lauren I love you. I do. And you left me for Logan. Logan doesn't deserve you, I do. I treat you like princess and he leaves you. Lauren I need you back. I never stopped loving you. I didn't want to let you go." He cried looking up, the stars made his eyes shine and the color was back.

"Zayn i-"

But before I could explain to him about Logan and I, he stood up grabbed my cheeks and pressed his lips against mine.