HOUSEKEEPER - JAEHYUN x READER

bipolar

Flashback: one and a half year ago

I woke up, fear taking over my body once again. My body was covered in sweat, I started to hyperventilate. A pale arm was slung over my waist, making me shiver. I hated every second of it, his smell mixed with the smell of alcohol lingered around the room, our clothes were laying on the floor reminding me of what he did to me that night.

I was disgusted, I wanted to creep into a black whole and just puke. I turned my head around, my eyes meeting his closed ones. His breathing was unstable, which creeped me out even more. I quickly stepped out of the single bed, the floorboards were cold. Just as I was about to open up the bedroom door to get the hell out of there, I could hear footsteps coming behind me. 

My breath stopped, it was like I forgot how to breath when I figured out  it was him.  I could feel him placing his hands on my hips, I didn't know what to do, I froze. 

"Where are you going?  I love you baby, you know that right?" he whispered in my ear, sending shivers down my neck. I was confused, one day he's being lovey dovey, the following night he's one of my worst nightmares. I just gulped, didn't know what to answer. 

"Go put on some clothes darling, I will make us breakfast since you were a good girl last night." His smile scared me, the way he suddenly was being so nice to me did as well. I couldn't do anything but nodding as a yes, walking back into his room. It was dirty, dust covering his old drawer. The sun was shining through the half closed curtains, making it even more visible. 

I could smell half burnt eggs and bacon from downstairs, I sighed. I loved this side of him, when he's all cute and caring. I was blinded by his smile, I forgot the darkness behind it. 

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Some days later

I received a message from him just as I walked into the grocery store. 

Juwon<3: don't forget my favorite chips, a six-pack with beer and that mint chocolate i showed you

Me: Ok, I am at the store now :)<3

I smiled lightly at the thought of him, he had changed after that night. He is back to being the loving man I adored, he hasn't done any harm. That incident probably just happened because of the alcohol his body had absorbed. We had to do it later anyway, I can't expect anything else as we're in a relationship now. 

I carried the two bags into his apartment, I have stayed over the whole week. He had insisted me to stay, even though my brothers wanted to see me. My parents didn't contact me, we've been even more distant. They were used to not seeing me, but I was still a little disappointed.

"Hey, I'm home" I called out for him, seeing him in a comfortable position in the couch watching something on the tv. He just lifted his head to look at me, nodding in recognition. He was acting kind of strange, but I just brushed it off thinking he just had a bad day. I took his groceries with me as I sat down at the end of the couch, barely getting space as his legs were in the way. 

I got a call from my brother Baekhyun after a couple of hours. Juwon took up my phone from the sofa table, checking who called before he gave it to me. He didnt look happy about Baekhyun calling me, but I answered anyway.

"Hello, what's up?" I asked him as soon as I answered the call, getting stressed because of Juwons stare. 

"Y/N, where exactly have you been? You have to come home now!" he talked fast, clearly sounding concerned. Juwon was trying to listen to the conversation, I could have just put Baekhyun on the speaker.

"Uhm, I've been staying over at a friends house. Has something happened, why do I have to come home now?" I lied, trying to act innocent.

"What friend?  That guy who watched over you when you were little? I miss that dude.."