Collision || Luke Hemmings

here's to my suffering

"And now I'm shaking, wearing thin, I always wonder where you've been, tell me if you wanted it at all." I sang quietly to myself, the song stuck inside my head since we had showed it Ashton an hour ago. I had been on edge since we arrived at the airport, half expecting her to be with Ashton when he met us. I was both relieved and upset when he showed up by himself, not even Sara by his side. 

"Luke?"

"Hmm?" 

"Can we start it from the beginning again, I wanna try something." Calum questioned, repositioning his bass as he looked at me. I nodded slowly, gripping my guitar again. The label who asked us to meet with them had lent out their studio for us to finish our demo, but we only had a few hours and I wasn't very optimistic that we were going to get it finished. We had already finished recording four of the songs we decided on and only had two more... but for some reason we couldn't get this song right. 

"Replay the scene over again, before the credits rolling in, inside my head, I don't recall a single word, they hit me faster than I heard, inside my head...." I listened closely as Cal sang, something still not right but I continued anyway. 

"And now I'm shaking, wearing thin, I always wonder where you've been, tell me if you wanted it at all."

"I got a long term plan with short term fixes
And a wasted heart that just eclipses
And I push my luck from trust to dust enough
That's the story of another us...." 

"Wait wait wait." Ashton cut us off, shaking his head. I wasn't entirely sure why it didn't sound right, but something was way off. I had liked the way it sounded when I wrote it, but I wasn't sure what was bothering me now. Half of me was thinking that this was a song I should've kept to myself... that maybe the reason I didn't like it now was because subconsciously I didn't want anyone to hear it. 

"I think it's missing something." 

"Maybe we should just scrap it." I suggested, the boys heads all snapping to look at me at once. Each one of them looked at me like I had gone insane... which maybe I had. 

"No, it's a good song but something about the way we're playing isn't working." Ashton said, nodding his head to some beat he had going through his head. 

"Well... why don't we finish the other songs first and come back to it. We don't enough time to be wasting on this one song." I huffed, annoyed because I knew they wouldn't let us just drop it. I had written plenty of other songs, only a few of which I showed them but they all decided they wanted this one. I tried so hard on the plane to convince Mikey and Cal to pick another song, but they refused. I don't know why I had picked this one to give them, but I was very much regretting it at the moment. 

"We can do that." Mikey mumbled, rubbing his eyes and yawning heavily. 

"We have three more hours." Cal stated, walking over to look at the book we had been writing over since we got here. "We've finished Never Be, Lost Boy, More, and Monster Among Men... we have to figure this one out, then we still have to decide if we're doing... uh...." He paused, looking over the list of songs we had written out. "Why Won't You Love Me... or Long Way Home?" 

"What about Want You Back?" Mikey asked, my head snapping to glare at him. 

"I offered you that song only if we didn't do Story of Another Us." I hissed, Ashton and Calum looking between us two confusedly. I hadn't shown Calum the song on the plane since Michael had immediately said no, but I think I had decided that was definitely one I didn't need to bring to light. 

"It was a good song." He shrugged, meeting my glare with one of his own. "I think we should do that over Long Way Home." 

"We can't do that and Story of Another Us." I repeated, my eyes narrowing sightly as I realized he was not going to back down.