Collision || Luke Hemmings

did he at least like the lingerie

A shiver raced down my spine, causing my eyes to shoot open. My body shot straight up into a sitting position, holding my blanket tightly as I looked around my room. My empty room. 

My heart was pounding, but I wasn't entirely sure why. It was like waking up from a nightmare, when you can't catch your breath because it all seemed too real. Like the thing that was chasing you finally caught up and was just about to grab you from behind, but the sweet relief of consciousness saved you. But I wasn't even a little bit happy to be awake. 

I didn't know  what I expected, but I definitely didn't expect to wake up alone.  

I sighed heavily as it really sunk in- that I was alone yet again. He promised we would talk, but apparently it wasn't a promise he could keep. Maybe that was a good thing, though. I was ready to tell him last night, when was drunk... but now that I'm sober I'm not sure if I would have been able to do it. 

"Knock knock I hope you're dressed." Sara's voice carried from behind my door before she swung it open, a wide smile on her face as she sauntered towards my bed. "So... how was your night?" All I could manage was a slight glare, my head pounding in the worst way possible. "Well that's not a good look for anyone." Sara chuckled, my eyes narrowing even more. 

"Why do you do this to me?"

"Why do I do what?" 

I rolled my eyes at her question before rolling my body over to look away from her. "You get me drunk." 

"From what I remember we were having fun." 

"Huh." I groaned, closing my eyes tightly as flashes of last night replayed in my head. I didn't want to think about it, and I can't believe that I had allowed it to happen... but it did. And he was gone again. 

"Alli." 

"Sara." I countered, pulling my blanket tighter around my body that was now in the fetal position. "Hey." I groaned when she tugged at the end of my blanket, turning slightly so I could see her face clearly. Now she was glaring at me. "What?" 

"Are you really going to make me ask?"

"Ask what?" I played dumb, hoping above all else that she would just get the hint and not ask. Of course she didn't... or she did and didn't care. 

"What happened last night?"

"I got drunk." I mumbled, turning away from her once more. I could picture her rolling her eyes even though I was not looking at her. 

"Allison." 

"That's not fair cause Sara is your full name." 

"I'll pull out the actual full name if I have to. Middle name and everything." 

"You wouldn't dare."

"Watch me." I groaned lowly at her words, sucking in a deep breath and rolled around to face her again. She smiled widely at me, my head shaking slightly. 

"He's not here." Were the only words that I got to say before tears broke free. I hadn't even realized that I had been holding them back, my entire body shaking as the dam broke completely. I was full on ugly crying, my body curling in on itself as I tried to anything to stop the shaking. And it wasn't even that it hurt... I wasn't at all the slightest bit surprised that he wasn't here, I was just immensely upset by it. And I hated that. 

I hated that after all this time he could still hurt me. 

"Alli." Sara mumbled, my bed shifting under her weight as she moved to wrap herself around me. It was awkward, the way she was half on top of me as she tried to hold me as best she could. I sucked in a shaky breath as she squeezed me tightly, more tears falling no matter how hard I tried to stop them.