Samiie Beard

Begining to put weight on

My boyfriend at the time was coming round to stay with me whilst my mum went away on holiday

I knew that this was going to help my eating habits rapidly but I was terrified. I knew I was going to put on more weight. I had already put on about half a stone from the binging, I guess that was a good thing but I missed being thin. I was 7 stone 4 when he first came over, he was there 24/7 so I couldn't do what I wanted.

We would go out to dimmer with friends and I really surprised myself and felt proud that I would eat and most of the time finish it!

I felt so proud of myself, and felt amazed that this person cared and loved me so much that he was willing to help me like my friends did. I don't know how it happened but I felt better, all of a sudden I wanted to get better, I wanted recovery, I wanted my life back and I felt with the support of him and my best friends it was going to happen In no time.

Weeks went on and I was back up to 8 stone! With the help of friends and family and the brownhill centre it was amazing. I was so pleased that recovery was happening, although still suffering recovery was definitely on the way!

I had my bad days but this was normal, I would speak to friends if I felt like that and one girl who suffers with the same thing was just so helpful, I idolised this girl, she was younger than me yet so much stronger than me. I wanted to be like her I wanted recovery and she really did help me with that.

Before I knew it I was 8 stone 5 and nearly at my restored weight.

I was so pleased how much I had put on in the short space of time but I didn't question it. I wanted my healthy life back and new recovery was the only way to solve that.