Baby Boy Blues ☁️R A N D Y☁️

F I F T E E N

•rye beaumont•

Andy was doing better and I couldn't be happier with it but as always my luck things always go south because it's always when someone asks about why I'm like this then I just shut them out but when Andy asked, he approached it a very different way.

"Rye? Can I ask you a question?" Andy asked as he looked at me, running his fingers through my hair.

"Yes?" I asked.

"You don't have to tell me or whatever because I want you to take your time to just tell me whatever but maybe if I can gain some of your trust then we can go from there. I don't wanna hurt you love. I have no intentions too. I just wanna help," Andy said as I sat up.

I didn't wanna shut him out but it was such a hard subject to me.

"Not right now. It's not that I don't trust you it's just hard," I whispered.

"Hey, that's okay," Andy said.

Then things started to turn and made me think differently.

What if Andy was just using me? What if he just wanted me for my body or worse?

"I'm sorry Andy I can't do this tonight especially with just my anxiety and stress and I need to go to bed and just relax. If you want to stay here then I have a guest room down the hall from my room," I said before standing up and running to my room because I was so weak.

I felt bad for leaving Andy but tonight I couldn't do it.

I ended up texting brook and having a long, mature conversation with him like we often do but this time I just needed him.

I didn't end up falling asleep until somewhere around 3am.

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You know when you're sleeping really good then you just wake up all the sudden? Well that happened to me and I don't know why.

I looked at my phone and the time read 5:30am.

What. The. Fuck. Only two hours of sleep?

I was struggling tonight and I can't do this.

I wonder if Andy was awake.

I went to the guest room and he was there but not asleep.

"What's up?" He asked as he say his phone down.

"I can't sleep, have you been up all night?" I asked.

"No, I jut woke up. It's my regular sleeping schedule," he replied.

I nodded.

"Can I just lay in bed until I fall asleep?" I asked timidly.

He nodded before making space so I could get in bed with him.

As I got into bed with him I relaxed a little more.

"Thank you," I mumbled as cuddled up to him because I was cold.

"It's nothing love, now go to sleep because you look exhausted," Andy stated.

And from then on I don't remember when I fell asleep.