Baby Boy Blues ☁️R A N D Y☁️

PLEASE read

Right disclaimer: I'm NOT doing this for ATTENTION!! I just need a vent and it's hard when literally no one is there for you.

Right 2018 was shit and I went through so many ups and downs (mainly downs) and I've lost a lot of people and has met a lot of new people.

Writing is a way I express myself and feelings and recently that's not been the case. I've gone back to a lot of things and I'm not gonna go into detail but I'm sure you can guess. I lost a really good friendship in 2018 and a relationship so yeah it was pretty shit.

Then as 2018 then on it CONTINUED to decline rapidly and as dramatic as it sounds it's not. I went down hill really fast and was in this state of horrible depression that I thought I would never get out but I somehow did and I'm not in a good mindset but I am if that makes any sense?

Recently my anxiety has been to its breaking point and I don't think I've ever had that many breakdowns in like a week and i hate it and I wish I was okay but I'm not.

Yes I love writing but sometimes it's stressful so I have to remove myself from it and just take a breather and sometimes that doesn't even help.

Things go on at home that I don't like talking about but that's also another reason why.

So how does this apply to you guys? I'm gonna take a breather for awhile and see how things go. Work on myself and try to better myself.

I don't know if I am do it because literally I'm doubting myself and how people view me.

Literally every author on here is friends with each other and I'm just here like "hi I'm younger then you so I'll go." And that's how I feel every time I talk to some people because I feel annoying.

But like I said I won't be writing for awhile but I might write behind the scenes and whatever but yeah I'll be back soon guys don't worry

Im keeping Baby Boy Blues updated but that's about it and then I'm gone so

Until then

PALSYOTFS
JJ🥰