Frozen Love

Chapter 12

Chapter 12

When I entered into the control room there was something I had completely unexpected, I felt my heart beat race up and my cheeks started feeling flushed, I felt like I was stuck in time and I couldn't breathe, my breathing hitched in my throat and I couldn't move my body, I was frozen and no control over my body, my eyes grew wide as I gazed all around the room. I felt like I was about to throw up and it didn't help that I wasn't able to move. Coulson finally noticed I wasn't behind him anymore and looked at me a bit worried "Myra?" he asked somewhat quietly, this attracted the attention of Bruce and all of the others, Bruce got up from his seat and walked over to me quickly I couldn't do anything except look all around me with my eyes staring at the screens and people all around me "Myra?" Bruce said grabbing my shoulder, all I could do was look at him with my mouth agape and my eyes glancing back and forth from the screens in the control room back to him. "Myra! what's wrong?!" he said louder "I-I.." was all I could make out, I looked around me and everyone was now staring at me. Gathering around me was Natasha, Tony, Steve, Clint, Coulson, and of course Bruce there was also another man there who looked strong and very muscular, he also had long shaggy blonde hair and wore an armour of some sort, he definitely didn't look like he was from around here. Bruce finally clued in and followed my gaze, when he looked at the screen he realized that my face was on all of the screens along with my files, there were stories of me, things I've done, where I had been before, who I associated with, everything, if I had any privacy before it was all ripped away within that moment, I felt like my dignity had been taken away from me, the only thing they didn't have on the screen were my powers, and the time I killed the boys in the convenience store and when they tried raping me in the closet of my old house. 

I couldn't handle the tension in the room as all eyes were fixated on me, Fury came into the room and asked what all the commotion was about, he then saw my files on the huge screens in the control room "get those files off of the screen now! are you fuckers really that dense?! she's right fucking here in the room, my fuck! we talked about this people!" Fury yelled at the control room workers, the workers quickly shuffled around and changed the picture on the screen to some other random things. I still couldn't handle it, the workers were still looking at me, some looked confused, others looked like they pitied me, while the rest were either angry with me or hated my guts and were giving me dirty looks. Once Bruce realized he grabbed me into a hug and just held me close, his heartbeat was kind of soothing but it wasn't enough to calm me down "why?" I muttered into his chest "shh, Myra, shh it's ok" Bruce said trying to comfort me as he patted my hair "why me?" I said just audible for him and the few closet people around me to hear, he just held me close and started rocking me side to side trying to comfort me. I looked up at him and stepped back from him slightly gaining control over my body again, "I can't" I said quietly "Myra.." Bruce started, I just shook my head repeatedly slowly stepping backwards "I can't do this" I said loudly so that everyone could hear, I turned and started running "MYRA!" Bruce yelled trying to get me to come back but I just continued running away from them, away from everybody, away from my problems, away from everything. 

I had no idea where I was going or what I was running into, there were people along the way who looked at me like I was crazy and was insane for booking it around the plane, but I didn't even care, all I knew was I had to run and that's exactly what I did, I ran like my life depended on it, right, left, right, right again, I finally made my way to an unfamiliar hallway, I ran down the hall and realized I hadn't been to this part of the plane before, I kept running and made a sharp left, I then came across a dark room that had no light but there was a gleam in the darkness so there had been some sort of glass in the room, I ran in and went to a small corner, I could hear people running around trying to look for me but I just shut everything out and focused on trying to breathe, my breathing hitched and the air was caught in my throat, whatever little air did make it to my lungs felt like a sharp pain in my chest. I was so overwhelmed by everything and I couldn't process it all at once, I had been on this plane for less than 24 hours and already every single person on this plane knew everything last thing about me except my 2 biggest secrets, getting raped and killing those boys, and my powers, unless they know that I killed those boys after they tried raping me but didn't put the file up on the screens.

I couldn't stop thinking of that night over and over, I also had the glares I got from every passing head stuck in my brain too, I felt so dark, so betrayed, so... evil in that moment. the emotions swept over me as I silently sobbed in the corner, I was looking around me to find anything sharp enough so I could cut myself with it I found a rusty nail in on the floor covered in dust and was about to resort to using that not caring what the outcome would be when I reached in my jacket pocket and pulled out a sharp nail file, "I guess this will have to do" I thought as I took of my jacket revealing my bare arms and turned my arm over so that I could see my wrist. It was really dark in the room and I could barely see anything I just took the file to my skin and dragged it across until I felt blood trickle down my arm, I bit my lip and hissed at the pain but then I sat back against the wall and felt the pain numbing away, I continued to cut myself and started getting light headed. I thought it had to due with the fact that my head was pounding and my heart was racing, my vision started to blur, or at least I think it started to blur considering I couldn't see anything in the darkness.

I sat against the wall in my little secluded corner away from the world and thought about how shitty my life really was, I had faced a bunch of terrible things and very horrible things have happened to me before, but at that moment when I felt like I was losing consciousness all of those problems disappeared, I rested my head against the wall behind me and looked out into the darkness, I started to wonder what was actually in this room but was to weak to get up and find out. As I looked out into the pitch black I could have sworn I saw a pair of eyes staring back at me but I couldn't be sure, my eyes slowly started to drift close and at that moment I felt like something had taken over my body completely and then the darkness consumed me, maybe the eyes staring back at me was my guardian angel.

If only I knew what was to come...