Frozen Love

Chapter 14

Chapter 14

As Bruce was finishing up bandaging my arm he gently held my hand for a brief moment and then placed my arm back into the restraint, I pulled my arm away slightly and he looked at me in a way as if to say 'I don't want to have another argument, please put your arm back in the restraint' I of course didn't listen so he sighed heavily as he tried to make a grab at my arm. When he missed he just gazed at the ground and held his hand out asking for my compliance, instead of giving him my arm to put back into the restraint, I held onto his hand. He looked up at me as our fingers entwined, he had a sorrowful look in his eyes and slightly shook his head, I gave him a small smile of reassurance and was about to explain my reasoning for what I had done.

"Bruce, I didn't mean to hurt-" and I was soon cut off by everyone else piling in and standing around me, they all had different expressions. Natasha was slightly concerned but didn't show much emotion, Clint looked at me in a disapproving way, Tony was a mix between shock, surprise, angry, and the slightest bit of guilt, and Steve looked disappointed, sad, and like he couldn't understand why I would ever do such a thing. Coulson had walked in behind everyone and was standing further back waiting to see what everyone says, he looked as if he somewhat understood why I had cut myself, but also looked sad and disappointed in me for causing myself harm. To my surprise Fury wasn't in the room, "he is probably waiting for chaos to happen so he can intervene and tell everyone to shut the fuck up, "he then will tell you that you are a dumbass and confine your ass in your room with a guard always at your side, and leave you in your room unless you are needed" as much as I hated to admit it, I knew the voice in my head had a very good point.

I saw everyone get a little agitated and they looked like they were waiting for me to say something, Bruce was still holding my hand and I could see him glance at me and then looked to everyone else, he sighed and slowly started lowering my arm back to where the restraints were. I pulled back slightly and he had an apologetic look in his eyes but shook his head and tried putting my arm back in the restraints, I again pulled away, this time not even caring about the fact that I was holding my arm to my chest like a child who was refusing to give up their favourite toy. Everyone around us was looking at us waiting for me to make my next move, I looked at all of them and then back to Bruce, I slowly reached over to my other wrist restraints and started undoing them, I did this as I was talking to Bruce so it wouldn't look as noticeable.

"Bruce, like I was saying before, I didn't mean to hurt you when I did what I did, I had no intention of hurting any of you" I say as I look around to everyone standing around me "I just don't understand why?" Bruce muttered looking at me, I let out a sigh and then thought of what I was going to say "I had my reasons, and at the time they seemed logical" I said I heard a scoff in the background and then saw Tony rolling his eyes "what?" I said annoyed he looked at me and had a look of angry and hatred in his face "you felt bad for yourself so you went running away and cut yourself until you almost bleed to death? That doesn't seem logical to me at all, and I'm sure it doesn't seem logical to anyone else in this room" he was clearly upset with me but I had no idea why he would care.

"Well for your information, I was feeling very overwhelmed and I couldn't breathe! Fuck, I couldn't even move! Because I was in so much shock I didn't know how to process it, my entire life's history was up there! You people clearly don't give a damn about privacy and don't care who got to read my personal information! You had everything I have ever done in that file, and I don't know how you even got that information! Fuck, the only thing you didn't have up on the big projection screens was..." I had almost blurted out my secret, the one secret these people didn't have on me, the one secret I would take to the grave with me, the secret of how I was raped and had killed the boys who had done it. They also didn't have my powers in that file but I'm pretty sure that they had a good idea that I had something special about me.
"What was the one thing that wasn't on the screen?" Natasha asked, I just looked at her and gazed away "nothing, it was nothing." I muttered "tell us" Clint said casually "ya miss perfect, what's your secret? What are you trying to hide from us?" Tony said getting annoyed "I said it was nothing, and I am not perfect." I said through gritted teeth, by this point my other hand was free from the restraints but I hadn't moved it yet so they didn't know I could move it, also Bruce started gazing around at the different people talking but always brought his gaze back towards me.