Betrayal {Fifth book of Bad At Love series} still fixing cover sry

Vacation

I walked into my house and didn't know what to do. "Baby I'm home." I whispered like I always did. I hated I couldn't win him back. I hate this, I hated life. I was supposed to be his not her. A million thoughts filled my head. I pulled open my night stand drawer and held his ring in my hand. I ran my fingers over the cold piece of gold. I miss him more every day, but I also get over him a little more every day. I'm happy for him I am, I just wish he was mine. I yawned and laid down and went to sleep. I woke up and smiled. "Morning Bradl..." i looked beside me and he wasn't in my bed. I burst into tears. "It really wasn't a dream." I cried. "I love him!" I cried. "I asked him to marry me first!" I cried a long time. I got up and decided I had to do something today. I changed and went to walked out back when my doorbell rang. I answered it. "Hey."

"Hey I figured I'd stop in." He said and I smiled.

"It's fine you didn't have to." I said and he frowned.

"Last night was hard John, i can't even get past it ok my own. I need you." He whispered and tears filled his eyes but they didn't fall. "I need you to be here with me."

"I am Bradley and I always will be." He smiled and I let him in. We didn't say anything. I realized then that I still hadn't let go of his ring. I fiddled with it. He looked at my hands and smiled. "You still have it."

"I would never lose it Bradley." I said and he smiled.

"John, can I admit something?"

"Yeah."

"I woke up this morning and went to wake you up but you weren't beside me. Then I started to cry because I realized it wasn't a dream."

"I did the exact same thing." I said and he nodded.

"We need each other more than we know." He said. "More than we want to need each other."

"I know." I said. He sighed and didn't say anything for a while. "I fucked up. I'm sorry."

"For what?"

"Cheating on you." I shook my head no.

"Let's not talk about this now." He nodded ok. We sat there in silence. "Where you gonna go on your honeymoon?"

"Fiji." He said and i smiled.

"Fiji's Nice."

"Yeah." He said.

"Who picked you or her?"

"She picked the spot and I planned everything." He said and I nodded.

"That's fun. I obviously, have no plans for this off season. I might just lay around and go to therapy for my heel all summer."

"That's boring."

"Yeah but it's something." I said. "I might go on a quick vacation, or I might go see my family. I'll probably do that." I said and he smiled.

"That's nice."

"Yeah, I haven't seen em in a while." We talked about randomness for a long time. It was just like old times, we laughed and talked for hours. His phone ringing interrupted our conversation about what a bunch of drunk basketball players on a court would look like.

"Hey!" He said. "Oh ok, see you soon. Bye!" He said. "I have to go, Melissa needs me." He said and I nodded. "Hey Thanks for talking with me." He said smiling.

"Yeah anytime. Feel free to come over whenever, we just can't stop talking about drunk basketball in the middle of the conversation." I said and he laughed.

"Ok see ya later John."

"Bye!" I said and he walked out.
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Life was great honestly. Bradley and I had become best friends again, and it's almost like this is what it was meant to be like all along. The only problem is there's always the thought in the back of my mind of where we could be right now. "Bro! Hurry up!" He yelled. I walked out in my swim trunks. "It toon you that long to.... ugh I'm gonna kill you!!" He said laughing and glaring at me. "And so is the rest of the team!" I shrugged.

"Always lets get going, if you keep sitting on yo lazy butt they'll get mad at us." I said and he laughed.

"Boy my last butt does more than yours does."

"Really how?" I said smirking at him.

"You don't know how many times I pound Melissa a week." He said. It was one of those moments that hurt. We both had those moments and we could tell when they happened. "I'm sorry i went to far I shouldn't have said that."

"No it's fine, it's the truth to." I said. He frowned.

"John." I smiled at him.

"Come on the team wants us to be there." I said and he nodded. We didn't really say anything for a while.

"How do dragonflies have sex?" He asked and I cracked up.

"What?!" I said still laughing. "I heard the right, right?"

"Yeah but I'm being honest."

"You Do know what your doing when you fuck her right?" I asked.

"Fucking when she sucks my dick right." He said joking. We both laughed. "But seriously, doesn't it seem like that would hurt? I hate dragonflies because I think their gonna sting me."

"I don't study dragonflies but I just know it gets done somehow."

"I know but I'm just confused. They all look like boys to me." He said and I laughed.

"They do to everyone Bradley."

"Really I thought I was the only one!"

"Bradley have you ever seen a dragonflies V?"

"Well no."

"Exactly they all just have sticks for butts."

"Yeah but how does it get done? Dragonflies can't be gay can they?" He asked and I laughed.

"More dragonflies keep showing up so I guess not."

"Do you think there are gay dragonflies?"

"Are there gay People?" I said and it went silent. I closed my eyes for a split second and took a deep breath in. "Where are we supposed to be going anyways?"