Voice | choi hyunsuk

07

Choi Hyun Suk

Ddaeng, ddaeng, ddaeng

The bell rang  and everyone went out of the classroom in sync. I walked out with Seunghun back reading from Byounggon hyung's text in our chatroom, talking about the hangout and all.

However, Soyoung remained silent after our conversation an yelling.

I know that I crossed the line by talking about it. I didn't even had the right to be mad or yell at her, it is a personal and sensitive topic for her. I guess—I should apologise later.

"All here?" Byounggon hyung started counting. Seeing Doyoung and Soyoung in the same place brings an awkward atmosphere only applicable to me. No one else can see her afterall.

We were walking as a group but also separated in pairs. Junkyu's talking to Yedam while Jihoon is clowning him, Byounggon and Seunghun were talking about where are we gonna eat, and there's me and Doyoung.

I'm fine with walking alone but Doyoung looks awkward when he's like this.

"Doyoung-ah!" I called his attention and gestured him to come over to me. He did and a faint smile appeared, not his usual one though.

Doyoung is very cheerful, determined, and bright during the first semester even if he always had that upset like voice.

No wonder Seunghun feels like it's unusual. If didn't know anything I honestly wouldn't realize it.

I glanced to my back and looked at her, happy to see her brother yet sad to not be there for him.

I don't know what happened between this two and I guess I need to find out about that first in order to be a step closer to helping Soyoung and bringing Doyoung's smile back.

"Doyoung-ah, are you doing well these days?" I ask carefully trying to find about it little by little.

"Hm? Yeah, im doing good.." That's lies isn't it, your voice always become small towards the end when you tell a lie.

"Is that so? Then please smile more! Our maknae looks very gloomy these days." I pinched his cheeks, even though I was also lying I did want him to keep smiling more; genuinely.

I know she knows that im also doing this on purpose, even if I don't turn around I could feel her stares and messages. It's fine, it's all fine, I have it under control; that was what I wanted to hell her.

We reached the store we're gonna eat in and there's actually a bar like area in it. Byounggon hyung is in college so he can drink, Seunghun and I are 19 yrs old so we aren't minors anymore and can somehow drink and same goes for Jihoon and Junkyu since their already 18.

However Doyoung and Yedam are minors so we have no choice but to avoid the bar.

Byounggon hyung treated us to the meal and everyone pretty much enjoyed. Being loud and all but I couldn't help and notice those siblings.

One was visible and one was the opposite but they had something in common, the sadness in their eyes.

Being so close to each other yet so far at the same time. Doyoung wasn't being loud as he used to be and he did try from time to time but his loudness doesn't stay for long.