Choosing My Heart's Direction (1D FanFic)

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Alexis P.O.V.

"I'm sorry, Uncle Zach," I whispered.

He sighed loudly into the phone. "It's ok, Lex. Just- are you absolutely sure?"

No. Of course not. "Yeah, I am."

"Alright. Just be safe, okay?"

"I promise," I whispered so quietly it was barely audible. I wouldn't be safe. What I was doing wasn't safe.

I hung up the phone and grabbed my suitcase. I was running away. I always ran away. Why? Because I was weak and couldn't face my problems. Because I couldn't keep living here. I couldn't live with Louis. He hated me, and I pretty much hated him. I couldn't live with Liam. He completely despised me and I couldn't just forget my feelings towards him. I couldn't do it anymore. It was all too much.

My phone dinged and I glanced down at it, seeing a new text.

From: J

leaving again? dont worry doll, we'll go where ever you do<3

I knew he'd follow me. I'd be in so much danger without the boys to protect me, but I was only putting them in more danger by staying here.

I slipped my phone away and gripped my suitcase tightly before walking into the living room. All four boys immediately turned to me and realized what I was doing before I was even half way across the room.

I heard Liam snort and mutter, "Good riddance."

Niall looked away and back at the tv. Zayn continued to stare at me, but didn't move from his position.

Harry, however, jumped up and ran to the door, spreading his limbs out to block the doorway.

I was now standing directly in front of him with nowhere to go. "Excuse me," I said quietly.

"Where do you think you're going?" he demanded.

"Home."

"This is your home."

I shook my head, forcing myself not to cry. I had to get out of here. "I'm sorry, Harry," I whispered.

"You're not leaving."

The other boys were watching in silence.

"I have to."

"No you don't."

"I can't stay here."

"Why not?"

I gave him an "are you kidding me?" look. He just shrugged.

"You're not leaving," he repeated forcefully.

"Just let her leave, Harry. Nobody wants her here," Liam called from the couch.

Harry glared at him but didn't move.

"You heard him, just let me leave," I said softly. I didn't want to cause a scene, I just wanted out.

He shook his head. "Come on, Lex. You don't actually want to leave. What about Josh? Hm?"

"What about him?"

"Who will protect you from him?"

"I survived two years with Josh before I even met you guys. I think I'll be fine."

"We both know that isn't true."

"Just let me leave."

"Nope."

"You can't stand there forever."

"Watch me."

"Harry, just let her go. If you don't let her go now, she'll just sneak out some time later," Niall said. He clearly wasn't happy with me.

Harry gave me a pleading look, but I gently shook my head. He stepped forward and pulled me into a bone crushing hug, whispering in my ear, "Please don't leave, Lex. We can fix this, I know we can."

"I'm sorry, Harry. But I really don't think we can. You boys already have enough to sort out, and I'm clearly causing most of it," I whispered back, pulling back.

Harry looked defeated and like he was going to cry. Harry and I had been so close the entire time I'd been here. It was going to be hard not having him to joke around with and always be there for me. I loved him so much and he was the perfect best friend.

I turned away and looked back at the other boys. Liam was smirking and Niall was avoiding my eye contact. I quickly turned away from them and locked eyes with Zayn. He mouthed "bye" and gave me a small, sad smile. I returned his smile and gave a little wave before turning back to Harry.

"Can I at least take you to the airport?" he practically begged. I nodded and walked out of the apartment, hopefully for the last time.

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The car ride went way faster than I wanted and Harry spent most of the time begging me to stay.

We pulled up outside the airport and Harry grabbed my hand before I could move to leave.

"Please, Lex. We can get our own flat. You'll never have to see the other boys, just please don't leave," Harry begged, tears in his eyes.

I turned to face him with a sad expression. His face was breaking my heart. I couldn't just leave my Hazza.

I gently squeezed his hand. "I'm so sorry Harry," I whispered, letting few tears fall.

"Come on, please? You and me, we can live in our own place! We can even have our own tour bus! I'll pay for all of it! Please, just don't leave." He was pleading with me. HIs offer actually didn't sound that bad, but I couldn't separate him from his band.

"Harry, I can't separate you from the boys."

"Screw them," he replied simply.

"Come on, Haz. I need to go."

"Please, Lex. You're one of the best friends I've ever had. You can't just leave!"

"I'll see you again, I promise. Just, go fix the boys, ok? I don't want to be responsible for breaking up One Direction."

He nodded, tears running down his face.

Harry P.O.V.

It literally felt like my heart was being torn out. She gave me one final hug and a kiss on the cheek before climbing out of the car with her suitcase.

Just before she closed the door I whispered, "I love you." She didn't hear and just kept walking. Walking away from me.

She disappeared through the doors and into the busy terminal. And just like that, she was gone. I blinked away the tears and wiped my eyes.

She was gone, Harry. You have to move on and forget about her. But how could I? I'd never actually stopped liking her. Every time I saw her in Louis' arms, it killed me inside. And to think she's also been with Zayn? That's not even fair! I'm fucking in love with her and she thinks of me as just a best friend. Zayn doesn't even like her! At least, not more than as a fuck buddy.

I shook my head, trying to make it all go away. Trying to make Lex come back. But it didn't work. She's gone. She went back to Ohio and left me here with a broken heart.

I loved Alexis Indigo Davidson. Every time she smiled, every time she laughed, every time her eyes lit up, my heart would race and I couldn't help but be happy. I loved Lex with my entire heart, but she was leaving me. The girl I loved was leaving me to go back to Ohio where she had nobody to protect her from Josh and his band of psychos.

And there was nothing I could do about it.