Alexis P.O.V.
I wanted to hate Louis. I wanted to hate him so much for everything he's done to me. But I couldn't. I honestly couldn't hate him. And I hated him for not being able to hate him.
I felt so broken inside. I felt like I wasn't good enough for him, and that's what hurt the worst. The man I loved didn't love me back. I couldn't help but blame myself.
Carson was still sitting with me, rubbing my back in silence. The tears had stopped falling a while ago, and I just laid on the bed, curled up.
Harry P.O.V.
I felt my heart shatter at Liam's words. I knew he was right. I should just let Lex be happy with Louis. But I couldn't exactly do that, seeing as how I majorly fucked up.
I left Liam and I's room a few minutes later and sauntered back to Carson's room, hesitant to knock. I finally built up the courage. I had to tell Lex sooner or later.
Carson opened the door, giving me a weak smile. We'd see if she was smiling at me after a few minutes. I followed her into the room. Lex hadn't moved and was still sniffling occasionally, her arms wrapped around her body.
"Lex, I need to tell you something." She glanced up at me. Now or never. "It's my fault Louis cheated on you."
Both her and Carson's faces turned to instant confusion. I sighed before continuing. "I kind of told the boys that I liked you last night when I was drunk, and I made some stupid joke about how you and I might have something going on, and Louis was there, and oh god, I'm so sorry Lex."
It was good to have it off my chest, but the hurt in Lex's eyes was almost too much for me to handle.
"Y- You what?" she asked, looking at me with pure disbelief.
"I'm so sorry Lex. I was drunk, and I didn't mean any of it. I'm so sorry. It was just a joke." Hopefully she'll think that me saying it was a joke included me liking her.
Carson was shaking her head, clearly disappointed in me.
Lex studied my face, her expression unreadable. I had no idea what was going through her mind.
"Harry, maybe you should leave so I can talk to Lex," Carson said slowly. I nodded, breaking my eye contact with Lex and turning and exiting the room. I headed back to Liam and I's room. Only time would tell what would happen.
Alexis P.O.V.
"Alexis?" Carson said softly after Harry left.
I looked up at her, still unsure of how to react. I was mad at Harry for what he did, but I still don't think it gave Louis the right to do what he did.
"What are you thinking?" she asked, sitting next to me on the bed.
I sighed. "A lot. I'm definitely mad at Harry, but it was really just a drunken joke. Louis should know that there's nothing going on between us and that neither of us even have feelings for each other. And some stupid joke still doesn't give him the right to cheat on me."
Carson nodded, agreeing. "Are you going to break up with him?" This question had been bouncing through my head since I found him in bed with that slut.
"I don't know," I admitted honestly. "I still love him, Car. It's just, I feel like I've given him so many chances."
She nodded in understanding. "Whatever you do, be careful, okay? I hate seeing you keep getting hurt like this, but you have to keep in mind how much it could potentially hurt to lose Louis."
She had a point. If I completely lost Louis, I'm pretty sure it would hurt a hell of a lot worse than this.
"Should I talk to him?"
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Choosing My Heart's Direction (1D FanFic)
Fanfiction[Sequel to Hearts in All Directions (1D FanFic).] Louis and Alexis have saved their relationship, but was it ever really worth saving? And now that another two boys are crushing on her, will she have to choose between the three of them? And what abo...
