Choosing My Heart's Direction (1D FanFic)

Violet

Dedication to Liam_Payne_Luv622 fo being really nice and sweet and also an amazing writer and dedicating a chapter of her incredible story One Thing (A One Direction FanFic) to me. Go check it out!<3

Alexis P.O.V.

"I miss them already," I sighed, slumping onto the tour bus couch. We'd just said goodbye to the girls and were now on our way to Chicago for the next show.

Even after the tour, I wouldn't be seeing the girls for a while, seeing as they were all heading off to college within the next couple weeks. Once they were at college they'd be too busy to come visit me and it'd be a lot more complicated to visit them. Plus, we were going to be on tour for a few months.

"I'll make sure you see them again soon," Louis promised, sitting next to me. I smiled at him. I knew it wasn't true, but it was nice of him to say anyway.

"I've never been to Chicago!" Niall said, excitedly bouncing into the room.

I'd been to Chicago a long time ago, but it wasn't exactly a fond memory.

"Me neither!" Louis said, grinning from ear to ear.

"Isn't it supposed to be super windy?" Niall asked Louis. I tuned out their conversation about pretty much everything they knew about Chicago, which wasn't really that much.

I looked out the window, watching the farmland pass by. It'd been a long time since I'd taken a road trip, and my mind couldn't help but wander back to those two years that Josh was constantly holding over me.

Those two years. I had been so young but I could remember almost every detail as if it had just happened. I managed to block most of it out, but occasionally a memory would surge through me, making me sick to my stomach.

I'd only been 8 at the time. I didn't know what I was doing. Could the boys really blame me for my actions so many years ago?

Of course they could. I wasn't sure if they would or not, but I would much rather they never found out.

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"I'm trying to sleep!" a groggy sounding Harry yelled from his bunk. We wouldn't be getting to Chicago until tomorrow, late morning, so we had to sleep on the tour bus for the night.

"Haz, it's only 2!" Louis shouted back, continuing playing his extremely loud video game with Niall and Zayn.

Harry let out a loud groan. I yawned and stood up, stretching out my arms.

The boys were so engrossed in their video game that they didn't notice me slip out of the room.

I walked into the kitchen, grabbing a glass and filling it with water. I quietly sipped the water, my back resting against the counter.

I finished the water and put the glass in the dish washer, turning to find Liam at the dining table, deeply engrossed in a book he was reading.

I slipped into the seat across from him, watching him as his eyes skimmed across the pages. A minute or two later, his eyes finally flickered upward, meeting mine. He lowered the book and continued to stare at me.

"Sorry, I didn't notice you there," he said slowly.

"It's fine, I haven't been here long," I smiled.

Liam chuckled under his breath, slipping a bookmark in his book. "What's up?"

"Nothing, just bored. Doubt I'll be able to sleep with those boys in there," I said, rolling my eyes at the three boys who were pretty much screaming.

"I know how you feel," Harry grumbled from his bunk. Liam and I laughed lightly at Harry's interjection.

"Talked to Alexandria lately?" I asked, trying to sound casual.