Young & Broken

chapter 8

Amelia's pov

After school I ran home not caring if my friends were calling my name.

As soon as I got home I opend my door and was hit with a peace of glass.

"You're 3min late!" My father said harshly

I ran past him and to my room before he could hit me.

I locked myself in my room.

I grabbed my pocket knife off of my desk and slit 4 lines on my wrist.

1: cut 4 times

2:make it hurt worser then before, using anything.

3: look in the mirror and throw every negative thing at yourself.

4:make yourself suffer.

5:shatter the glass until your knuckles are bloody.

6:cut at least 5 times on each wrist.

7:cry until there's no more tears left.

8:tell no one.

9:scream until your throat hurts.

10:let the darkness take over

Finally

11:kill yourself.

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Another school day passed and all I did was ignore everyone around me.

Sadness took over me and I let the the darkness consume me. Not even talking to anyone for the whole day. Getting asked if I was ok so I told them that I was but really I wasn't ok.

Bri asked if I was ok and if I needed help but I said "I'm ok. I'm fine" but really I wasn't ok, I wanted help.

All I wanted was to die. I try to keep the Urges from killing my self locked away but it's hard so I just sit in silence.