Meant For You✔️(Wattpad Version)

Holding onto a secret

I ended up back in therapy, thanks to my setback. I had been able to hide it until recently. My parents and family didn't know I reverted to my past behaviors towards the end of junior year. No one knew. I was able to hide it from them all, except that day.

The day Cody rejected me ultimately, and Brandon told me to leave him alone. Having your crush and best friend reject you was one of the worst feelings in the world.

While I went to therapy, I refused to speak to anyone. I didn't want my friends to know my secret. I didn't need reminding of how pathetic I am. I already knew. It was better this way.

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Brandon

Ever since that day, I felt terrible. I let my anger get the best of me. I was just sick of the fact, here I was in love with Andi, and all she could talk about was some guy who didn't feel the same about her.

The worst part is she wasn't talking to me or anyone else. I tried to ask Coop, but all he said was, "I can't tell you. She has to."

I tried to talk to Andi, and she would walk away. I hated this. I would instead befriend zoned than not talk to her at all. I wish I would have never snapped at her.

That continued for a few days when I left class to use the bathroom. Walking down the hallway, I heard someone being sick. Probably a flu bug is going around until the door opened and I came face to face with Andi.

I looked at her, confused, and she looked at me horrified. Then I realized why?

She started to leave, quickly when I grabbed her arm, preventing her from walking away.

"Brandon," was all she managed to get out.

I shook my head at her, "Andi, please don't walk away. Talk to me."

She furrowed her brows at me as I watched her try not to cry, "Why? People reject you."

I stood there, looking at her with concern. The other day when I snapped at her, she took it as rejection. I never meant to reject her. I never wanted to.

"I wouldn't reject you," I told her.

"But you did," she answered, curtly as I stood there, knowing she was right. I hated myself for that.

"I'm sorry. That was never my intention. I was just upset, but I would never reject you. Talk to me," I told Andi.

She yanked her arm out of my grasp, "fine. I'm sick and tired of feeling like a loser," she snapped.

I stood there and looked at her.

"Every time I like someone, they don't like me back. You're ugly, I'm not into you, you're a nice girl, but," she ranted. "Why am I not good enough? Why can't I look like Marta or anyone else? Why am I never good enough?" Her voice broke as people emerged from classrooms to watch her fall apart.

"Why, Brandon? What is so wrong with me that no guy will love me?" She cried as I stood there, watching her as my heart broke.

She noticed people watching her then she completely lost it, "what are you looking at?! I bet you're all having a good laugh! Go ahead and laugh at the ugly, loser! I know you want to!"

The thing was, no one was laughing, and she ranted on about feeling ugly and unloved. I watched the girl I am madly in love with, completely break in front of me. At that moment, all I could do was show her.

I tried to pull her to me as she fought as I wrapped my arms around her until she stopped fighting me. I held her as she cried. As much as I wanted to confess to her, I was standing in front of her wanting to love her, I refrained. Right now, I just wanted her to feel like she had someone that cared about her.

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I buried my head in Brandon's chest. I felt humiliated and knew people were staring at me. I just wanted to crawl in a hole right now.

He walked me to the office, and they called my parents. I sat there, not knowing what to say. Here, someone, I knew found out my secret and I didn't know what to say to him. He wouldn't look at me the same way.

We waited until my parents showed up. They signed me out of school and walked me to the car. I knew what was coming. It happened before. My parents were admitting me to a hospital for help. Last time, someone had to watch me why I used the bathroom. I even had a feeding tube because I was severely underweight and malnourished.

You are having an eating disorder blows. You think you have control over things, but you don't. It controls you. You're so busy hiding your secret that you put a distance between you and the people you care about in your life - anything to keep your secret safe.

We pulled up to the hospital and met by my doctor. She handed dad a clipboard. He took it from her and sighed. I watched as he signed the papers, knowing I disappointed him. It was the worst feeling in the world.

I turned to him, "I'm so sorry, dad."

His expression softened, "Andi, don't be sorry. We want you to get better." He held out his arms as I hugged him. He hugged me back, "I know you can do this. Promise me you will work to get better."

"I promise," I told him my voice muffled.

He kissed me on top of my head as he released me. My mom hugged me as I hugged her back. I released her as I walked with the doctor to the back. I turned to see them still standing there. I gave them a faint smile before turning back. I needed to get better, not just for them, but for me as well.

The doctor showed me a room. They gave me clothes to change into while I was here. Now came the process of getting better. Weigh-ins, food monitoring, being watched, seeing a therapist, and attending a group. Some senior year I was going to have.

While kids my age were enjoying their senior year and getting ready for all the special occasions, I'm in a hospital. What I wouldn't give to be stuck in high school right now?

Andi is dealing with a major issue and someone is going to show her how much they truly love her along with her family and friends. Along the way, you'll see them all pull together as new romances emerge and we see Mack play a big part.