Mature (book 2)

Chapter 17 - FML

"And I know, that last time we talked about it, you were really down, you seemed more sad than excited and you acted all weird, but I don't care. It's your birthday and I want to make your birthday a rememberable birthday." He says.

Fuck, I totally forgot about that, what am I going to do now? I can't break up with him now. Ugh. Fuck my life.

I totally forgot why Shawn was in town for so long. He has a show here. Oh my god. I'm so stupid.

"Are you ok?" He asks. "Yeah, I'm fine" I say and I start eating, fuck.

"So... are you happy?" He asks. "Very" I lie, I can't believe he actually bought me VIP tickets.. that shit is expensive. And he also took me to Paris, holly shit. I'm the worst person ever. I can't break up with him. I will never be able to.

"You don't look very happy" he says, "well, I don't know. It's all way too much, and you've done so much for me. I'm very great full. I really am." I say.

"Don't you, think about the money, I got it. And I like Shawn Mendes too. It's not just for you, so don't feel bad about it" he says.

"Ok"

After dinner, I went home, I have to wake early for work tomorrow.

I took a shower changed into my pajamas, and went into bed. It's 11 pm.

Should I tell Shawn about this? About me coming to the concert? Does he even remember he is preforming on Friday? Well of course he remembers. How can he forget?

No I probably shouldn't tell him, I haven't decided if I want to go yet, I just don't know what to do now.

In the morning, I woke up got ready and went for work, it was a regular day, nothing crazy happened. I went back home after that day.

It's 7 pm now, I walk in and I see Lucas is sitting with Liam, what just happened....

"Hey can I talk to you?" Lucas asks me in the second I walk in. "Yeah sure, is everything ok?" I ask. Ugh, until I had a good day, something has to go wrong right?

me and Lucas walk to his room, he closes the door and he takes a deep breath. "You and Liam are going to Shawn's concert this Friday?" He asks.

"Yeah.... is there a problem?" I ask. "No, it's just, does he know you know Shawn, personally?" He asks.

"Not really" I say, neither do you tho, Lucas.

"So are you just going to his concert like you don't know him?" He asks. "Lucas what do you want from me? I'm just going with Liam to the concert. And that's it. What is your deal?" I ask. "Nothing" He says. "It's just- won't it be weird for you?"

"No, I mean, I don't know. Why would it be?" Lucas do you know something you want to share with me? "Oh, ok cool." He says.

"Ok..." I say and I walk out of his room. "Hey babe" Liam walks over to me and gives me a kiss. "Hey, What are you doing here?" I ask. "Oh I just came to say hi, and I also didn't know you were working until now" he says. "Oh yeah.." I chuckle.

"Do you want to do something tonight?" He asks. "I don't know I'm kind of tired" I say. "Long day..." I add. "Ok, so do you want to sleep over at my place tonight?" He asks.

"Sure" I say, I have no idea why I said that. But I wanted actually to go over to his place, I don't know being here alone with Lucas, didn't sound like a better option.

It's 9 pm September 4th, 2 more days till the show. We got to his house after we stopped to buy some snacks and stuff.

"I'm just going to take a quick shower, after that we'll watch a movie or something. Ok?" He says.

"Ok" I replay. Liam is in the shower, and I'm just walking around the house, at first I say on the bed and was just on Instagram like I usually do, but it got Boring, so I looked over to see if there is maybe a nice book to read or something In his drawers.

I took the first book I saw, it wasn't a book, it was a notebook.

"Privet! Do not touch" was written all over it.

My first instinct was to put it back, but I couldn't, What could that notebook be? I was dying to find out what it has inside, I had to open it.

"
August 1st.

Dear diary, "

I closed it. It's a diary? I didn't know Liam keeps a diary.

After a few seconds that I was thinking about what to do next I had to just read what is said, I couldn't fight my urges. They were stronger than I was.

"
Hello Dear diary,

I just got home, after talking to Britt, I was thinking about it for so long, for about a month now, what should I give Michelle for her birthday. Brittney told me to take her to a concert, but I wanted to go somewhere new. Somewhere that was far from here.

I wanted to make sure she isn't suspecting anything, and that I give her the perfect thing, that will make her so happy that she will truly love me and will never want to let me go.."

Awww Liam is so sweet.

"August 3rd

Dear diary hello,

I was over today at Lucas's house. I can't believe I saw him again.. i can't believe I kissed him again."

Liam walks out of the shower and I jump back into bed, putting his diary under my shirt. I'm so confused by what I just read. What the hell?