Mature (book 2)

Chapter 20 - "We are dating"

A few minutes later Shawn and I got dressed, and we both walked out of his room, his mom already saw us, nothing to hide anymore.

We walk through the living room to the kitchen, I'm walking by Aaliyah, trying to not look her in the eyes. I feel really bad. I don't know why.

We got to the kitchen and both his mom and his dad were sitting drinking coffee and whispering.

"Hey" Shawn says holding my hand. What is happening..?

"Hey hunny, how are you Michelle didn't see you in a while" Keren, his mom says smiling at me. "yeah it's been a while" I say uncomfortably. "Do you want something to eat?" She offers.

"Im good, you want something?" Shawn asks looking at me, "no I'm good. Thanks" I say. It feels so uncomfortable. She just saw us together in bed. "Hey mom can we talk to you outside real quick?" Shawn asks. Did he just say WE? "Yes of course" she smiles taking her cup of coffee and we all walk out side.

We sit at the balcony, it's VERY uncomfortable. "I know you saw us in bed together" he says. "I did" she says. Wow, he is so open about it, like what the fuck? My face went red like a freaking tomato I felt so embarrassed.

"We are dating" he says. I chocked on the air, Bitch what the fuck? did he just say we are dating?

"You ok?" Shawn looks at me, no I'm not ok. I put my thumbs up, acting like I'm ok, but I'm not.

"You two are dating?" Karen's eyes go wide. "Yes, we didn't want to tell anyone yet, because I'm still on tour and we haven't really talked about it until yesterday, but we are" he says.

When did we 'talk about it' ? I don't remember talking about it. "Now I'll be really thankful if you don't tell anyone, and that you'll keep this to yourself, until we decide to tell the family and friends. Ok?" He asks. "Fine, my mouth is shut" she says. "Thanks mom, now, you can tell dad and Aaliyah. But only them. And please don't say that you caught us in bed together, you know how dad is..." he says.

Oh my god, what is happening?? "Fine. I'm just happy you guys are dating, and I'm happy you decided to tell us, even if it wasn't your intentions.." she chuckles. "welcome to the family" she says standing up giving me a hug.

She walks inside leaving me and Shawn alone at the balcony. "Shawn What the fuck just happened?" I ask confused. "I'm still with Liam, you can't tell anyone about us, until we are completely sure that-"

"I am completely sure." He says. "Ok but what if people will find out about us, and that I'll be walking with Liam somewhere... people will think I'm cheating on you and I will be hated." I say. "By the entire world" I add.

"Not by the entire world" he says sort of mocking me, and hugging me, "I won't hate you" He kisses my head.

"Shawn I don't know." I say. He kisses me making me forget what we were talking about and he whispers in my ear, "when we go public all the boys in the world will be so jealous...."

That comment made me smile, "you mean all the girls in the world would be so jealous." I correct him, "both" he giggles.

"Thank you" I say looking up to him, "thank you?" He asks. "For what are you thanking me?" He looks confused. "For supporting me, for being so nice, and not hating me, you understand me, you make me feel good even tho at the same time I'm the worst. Thank you Shawn" I say.

"I love you B" he says looking in my eyes. Oh my god. He said it again. Last time he said that, things went crazy. He loves me, holy shit! do you think he ever stopped?

I want to say it back to him, but I'm scared. "I need to talk to Lucas, can you take me home?" I ask politely, trying to change the subject. I'm just not ready to say it. I said it to Shawn a year ago and it all went to hell, and I also said it to Liam and that went to hell to. I'm just not ready saying it again, at least not now. I know that I have deep feelings for him. I know that that's how I feel. But is it LOVE..?!

I swear that that word is scaring me sometimes.

"Sure" He says smiling.

A few minutes later we were already in his car on the way to my house. I can't believe he told his family about us. I feel ashamed, I don't know why, but I do. I feel ashamed.