Amanda, David, Simon and Alesha are all sitting together on Simons couch, watching a movie the girls chose. Amanda and Alesha are obviously cuddled up together on one end, sharing a blanket. Simon sits against the arm of the couch and david between the girls and him.
The credits roll and sniffling can be heard, from the girls' end ofcourse, while Simon looks at David- whos grinning at him-, and grimaces, 'girls am i right'. He rolls his eyes playfully.
Simon stands up abandoning his wine glass, stretches his older muscles and walks over infront of them. "Come on girls its just a movie, besides you guys should probably get home, its-" Simon pats Aleshas leg and looks at his watch, "-Bloody, its half past one, come on get up"
He takes their blanket and throws it somewhere on the ground, making the girls whine annoyed. "Simon your house is cold" Amanda says, groaning. "Great so get in the warm car" he replies, returning to his glass.
He notices David staring at him but pays it no mind. "Yeah yeah granddad" Alesha says as they both get up, looking for their belongings. Simon scoffs "im not that old!"
David grins smugly "im positive I heard atleast 205 of your bones crack when you stood up, old man" Simon grabs a pillow and smacks him playfully, making all of them laugh.
The girls gather all their stuff and Simon and David follow them to the door. "Have a good night, make it home safely" Simon hugs them each briefly. "Wow you really are a dad" David whispers him in the ear, before stepping away laughing.
"David I swear to god-" Simon groans. Alesha rolls her eyes but smiles at their banter "by the way, arent you joining us David?"
He shakes his head "no i'll, head home later" his smile seems uptight, but he hugs them and bids them farewell all the same. Simon stares at him as the girls leave and David closes the door. "Are you okay?"
He looks up at him, smile faltering and hesitates, but nods after a moment. "Lets just watch something, shall we?" He seems to regain his cheeriness and grins at Simon, walking back to the couch. Simon watches him for a bit longer, before going to join him. "Sure, what do you want to watch?"
He grabs the remote and sits next to David, who thinks for a while before eyeing him, ".. I know just the movie"
Simon raises his eyebrows at him questioningly but David just grabs the remote, searching for the movie. Simon takes his glass, pausing for a moment, "more wine?". David looks up at him smiling and nods. So he walks into the kitchen, grabs a bottle and pours for the both of them, eventually deciding to take the bottle with him.
Simon sighs annoyed but amusedly as he sees the movie he picked, David grins and presses play. "The fault in our stars? Really? I thought we were done with romcoms"
They both laugh, and Simon sits nexts to David, who leans a little bit closer.
"Hey Si?" David mutters, looking up at Simon. they are on movie nr three and now practically laying down, Davids head on Simons shoulder, and Simons arm around Davids waist, resting his own head on Davids head aswell. He hums questioningly,
"You remember how Stephen asked us wether we thought it was best to love and lose or never love at all?" Simon tenses slightly, but eventually he nods.
"Well, why did you agree with what Stephen thought of you?" David raises his head to look up properly at him. He swallows and takes a sip from his second wine glass. "Because, well, its true".
David looks at him unconvinced, and he sighs "I mean it David". The other just stares at him, before saying "you know you dont need to have that heartless persona on all the time right?"
"Im not, its not a persona right now David, im serious, I believe its better to not love at all.." he trails off at the end.
"But why? Why miss out on the chance to love, to find something that can be so beautiful, so pure?" David starts getting far more interested in the conversation at hand than the movie.
"Just because it can be doesnt mean it will be" Simon grumbles, staring down at his glass.
"And just because it cant be doesnt mean it wont!" David retorts back. Simon rolls his eyes amusedly "copycat". David sighs "i mean it Si"
He rests his head back against the couch and looks up at the ceiling, and encourages David to lay with him again.
David shakes his head and looks defiantly at him. "Youre not getting away with this one Si, why do you think that?"
"..Because i do"
"Thats not a reason!"
"Uh yeah it is"
David sighs exasperated "No its not" "Yeah it-" "Why Simon?" he stares at Simons face intently.
"Is it actually because youre trying to play this carefree Mr. Nasty And Heartless persona? Thats not you Simon. Are you trying to fit into what people think of you? Thats bad, please dont"
"Or is it because you think you havent experienced it? Have you never felt an uneasy but good feeling in your stomach at the thought of being with someone? Or the sight of them? Have you never felt absolutely elavated when somebody talked to you? Felt jealous when somebody else liked them or-"
Simon bites the inside of his cheek "ofcourse ive felt love David.." he mumbles
"Wait do you think you dont deserve love? Ofcourse you do Si! Youre an amazing man and anybody would be lucky to have you, youre not just your money if thats what youre worried about. Youre sweet, funny and absolutely brilliant, and hot" David winks at him.
"Bloody hell, David can we just drop it and continue watching the movie please?" Simons voice cracks on the last word and David looks at him worried.
"No- Si whats wrong? I didnt mean to make you sad I just want to-"
Simon clenches his fists "Im fine David, drop it." David begins up again and so he slams his glass a little too hard against the coffee table "godfuckingdamnit stop it David please!"
David stares at him incredulously "why are you getting so mad Si" he gently touches Simons hand, who practically winces, as if stung and stands up hurridly.
"What- Simon seriously why are you acting like this?" David now stands up with him.
"Bloody let me be! So what I cant bloody allow myself to love anybody! Do you want to know why? Really David do you?!"
David raises his voice to match Simons "Yes why the fuck is it such a problem!"
"Because I cant fucking handle losing you!" Simon yells at his face.
They both stand, stunned.
"W- What?.."
(hhhh its absolute fucking shit, i had an idea but it just turned into this fucking crap, maybe someday ill do it better but uuuhh doubt it, also its 6 in the morning and i havent slept yet so excuse any dumbness, I'll have something hopefully better out hopefully soon, if i can get blessed with writing abilities christ, i swear this is so bad im sorry)
