Cause I'm not fine at all

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"A therapist?" I asked angrily. She nodded. "No. No I won't go." "Luke this is the only way you can stop being angry at the world-" "I'm not angry at the world. I just want to ruin everything." "Why Luke? Why? Everyone is trying there best to make you happy and all you do is turn them down. Can't you see we just want you to be happy again."

"Because everything ruined me. Everything every single thing. So don't ask me why. Because now you know." I shouted and ran upstairs. I slammed by door shut and locked it. I heard a door creak open and I could tell it was Lilly's. I heard footsteps going down the stairs. Then I heard sobs. Familiar sobs. Sobs that I have heard more than once. They were Lilly's.

I opened my door and peaked my head out. There was Lilly hugging my grandmother tighter than ever sobbing into her shoulder. I walked back in my room and sat on my bed.

I hate Sarah. I hate Ashton. I hate Emily. I hate Lilly. I hate Grandma Joy. I hate mom. I hate dad. But most of all I hate myself.

I don't know why I even said what I said to Sarah that day. I don't. I hate her. I stomped down the steps and slammed the front door shut. I needed to get out of there. I started to run. I didn't know where I was running but I was going somewhere. I ran around a corner and I saw a park. I walked inside and sat on the bench.

I looked around. I saw two little girls running around. One was chasing the other. One had short blonde hair that stopped at her chin. The other hand long hair that stopped just as it hit her chest. It was pulled into pigtails.

I looked around to find there parents but I couldn't see any adults anywhere. That's when I saw her. I saw Sarah. She was sitting on the swing set playing on her phone. She looked up at me and smiled. She started to walk over to me.

"Hey." she said as she sat next to me. I glared at her and kept my mouth closed.

"So, how you been?" "Why are you here?" I asked ignoring her question. "Oh I don't know. I like to come here sometimes and think. No one really ever is here so that makes it even easier." "Well leave."

"Huh?" "I said leave. You know get out of here. Move. Get. Scat. Leave." I said. "I know what you meant but why?"

"Because. Can't you take a hint.

I. Don't. Like. You. Period," she looked confused. "Oh." she answered. "What did you think Sarah? That after I said what I said we would be boyfriend and girlfriend and live happily ever after?" She shook her head "Good. Because that will never ever ever happen." I said getting up. I walked over to the exit and walked up a street. Not even turning around.

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Luke stooopppp. Your so rude. Like girl bye.