"It is my first day of school. I just recently moved from North Dakota. I left all my friends behind. No one can know about my past. I'm leaving everything behind. It will remain in the past. It will remain in North Dakota."
I sat there waiting in the waiting room. It felt like months or even years. It's been days. I couldn't see him because he's been in and out of surgery. It's been the worst couple days of my life. I keep remembering all the good times Parker and I have had. I've been rethinking the I love you. All of a sudden the doctors came out. They looked worried. "He doesn't have much time left. It is time to say your goodbyes." The doctor told me. My heart sank. I felt numb. I couldn't breath. I ran back to Parker. There he was. Laying there with nothing left of him. I ran my fingers through his hair. His eyes started to open. "Hey Parker." I said trying to keep myself content. "Am I gonna make it?" He asked me. "Yes baby. You're going to make it. You're all better now." I whispered in his ear. His eyes closed and moments later, he flatlined. I placed my head on his chest and started crying. "I love you Parker Elliot. I love you." I whispered through my tears. Suddenly my alarm rang. I woke up with dried tears on my face. It was the morning after everything happened and all that was just a dream, thankfully. I get to see Parker today. He gets out of surgery at 12 and it's 11:30. I had to get dressed and brush my hair.
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My mom gave me my car back to drive to the hospital and to drive back home. She knew what happened and she said she never would have thought Liam would do something like that. I knew I couldn't blame her. It wasn't her fault. The only person I could blame was Liam and he was dead. There were two shots that went off. One that was suppose to be for me, and instead hit Parker and one for Liam. He shot himself. He was and always will be a coward. I got into my car. It was normal temperature for a car. I check my mirrors and my brakes. Everything seemed to be just how I left it. I drove to the hospital. I kept shaking and I couldn't focus. What if Parker wasn't all right? What is he hated me? What if he thought I was the reason he got shot? I took the same route I did when Parker was in the car because there was no other way. It brought back flashbacks. All the blood. Me crying. Not being able to breath. Parker barley making it. I pushed all my thoughts aside. I knew I had to get the the hospital and be with Parker. I was everything he had. When I finally got there, I parked my car and got out. I looked at the hospital and tried to keep everything in. "It's going to be okay." I remind myself. I walked in and went to the front office. "Hi. How are you?" The desk secretary asked me. "Fine. I'm here to see Parker Elliot." I said to her. She looked me up and down and said "Just a minute." It wasn't 'Just a minute' it seemed like forever. "Ah yes. Thank you." She said as she got off the phone. "Room 215. The doctors said he might not be awake yet." The lady told me. I smiled and turned to the rooms. They all looked the same. Parker's room would be on the second floor since it was room 215. I decided to stop at the gift shop and buy Parker a little something. I walked in there and walked around for a minute. Ultimately, I bought him a couple balloons, a giant teddy bear, flowers, and some snacks since he hasn't ate recently. I took the elevator to save myself from dragging all Parker's stuff up the stairs. It took me awhile to find his room because there was two sides of the second floor. Finally, I got to his room. I grabbed the doorknob and took a second to myself. Deep breath in and deep breath out. It's going to be okay. I twisted the doorknob. There was Parker. He was laying on his bed with the TV remote in his hand. He looked over at me. "Oh hey there beautiful." He said with a smile. He looked so much better. "Oh my God, Parker!" I dropped all all the stuff that I had in hand and ran to Parker. "Woah there. Ah. Still hurts. Still hurts just a little." He said a little serious but not to serious. I laughed and layed in the hospital bed next to him. I buried my head into his chest and he wrapped his arm around me. "Don't leave me. Please. Don't ever again Parker." I told him. "I won't. I promise. I'm not going anywhere Leilani." He whispered in my ear. -- To Be Continued:) --
