90 Days to Love (Completed)

2: Selfish

This has got to be the longest nap I have ever taken, and boy does it feel good. So good that it almost felt far too good... to be true.

                I felt myself going from seeing the darkness of my inner eyelids, to seeing little peaks of the light above me. At first, it was bright to the point where it was harsh causing me to shut them right back. I took a couple of moments to regroup before, I finally began to work at getting them open again. I waited for my eyes to get adjusted before, I looked to my left to see the window by my bed; outside was still dark so thankfully. I didn't oversleep. With my love for sleep, I took this as my opportunity, to shut my eyes and go right back to the peaceful realm, I had just woken myself out of.

                I let out a soft satisfying sigh as I tried to drift back to the place I was coming from, it was disturbed by the sound of constant beeping. It went from a beep to the sound of some sort of wind; I couldn't put my finger on it. My brows furrowed and I tried my best to block it out but it just got stronger and stronger and I went from hearing to feeling. My legs were tingly, I felt sore all over, I felt discomfort in my right forearm and as if something was covering my mouth.... had I been kidnapped?

My eyes opened up instantly and I began to feel my chest tighten at the thought. I took a look around the room this time, piecing together the fact that I wasn't in my room, at all. The beeping came from the monitor connected to my chest; that only made more noise now that I was freaking out. The sound of wind I heard, came from the oxygen mask covering my mouth and the discomfort I felt in my arm was from the IV I was hooked up to. What the hell... did I miss?

I placed my left hand on my chest and tried to calm myself down, I gave myself a mental pep talk in order to get that machine to stop making so much noise.

Alright, Desiree, you're in the hospital obviously... the question is; what for? What was the last thing that you remembered? Did you hurt yourself badly?

I thought back and remembered the little red bruise I had and the few scratches I had acquired over the summer, but that was nothing to be in a hospital bed for..., right? couldn't be... I went back into my mind and tried to piece back the hazy last memories that revealed the whole embarrassing scene of what happened in school, throwing up in the boy's bathroom, getting carried out by Jeremiah. Oh, dear God, I'm here because I nearly died from embarrassment. That had to be it. There was no way that I would be able to live this down. That was a fact, Georgian had no mercy and my little stomach flu incident was probably sweeping through the halls like wildfire. Kill me now.

                I closed my eyes again and tried to find some sort of peace because I was going to need it in order to return. I also was trying to find a way to recover from such a situation. I mean, this was my senior year, I had made goals for things to be different. I planned to be finally be seen and not known as 'Shaniya and Amber's little friend' or better yet 'Gio's little sis.' I had plans to defeat and conquer Georgian, to make it my own and finally be able to make a name for myself and now... look at this, I was going to be known as the girl with the stomach flu. What an embarrassment.

I heard the door open but I decided to just keep my eyes shut, for now, the light was too much for me to handle and I still was trying to get over this whole thing. I figured it was the nurse anyways since I heard the individual move from the doorway to the machine beside me, checking it. I'm guessing, it was due to my little panic episode before.

After a few minutes, he or she was gone. I continued to lay there and just find a way to relax around that annoying beeping sound when I heard the doorway open again. This time, I heard very familiar voices come in as well. "I don't know how we're going to tell her." my mother spoke, her voice so soft that it was angelic. Man, with her always being at school, we barely got the chance to talk and I had to admit that I missed that voice. I wanted to open my eyes just to see her face, she was normally gone while I was home and home when I was gone, so I didn't even know what kind of hairstyle she had in now. I tried, to open my eyes, but the light... stopped me. It was just too bright.