LOVE BEAT

Chapter 27**makes me weak

Do you miss Yu-an's POV? I sure did.

So i decided to give this chapter to him.

Rock on,baby!

JUAN'S POV

I stared at Yass's back.

Fuck! I am so mad right now.

I missed her, tapos ganito ang mangyayari?

I left for two fucking weeks!

For the past two weeks, i was so afraid.

Natatakot akong magalit sya ng todo todo dahil umalis ako ng walang paliwanag.

And nangyari nga ang kinatatakutan ko.

I turned to Dylan, this fucking bastard had it up to here.

"Will you fucking back off man?" the crowd is listening to our conversation.

Its embarassing, but i dont really give a damn sa mga sasabihin nila ngayon. i cant even function right because of jealousy.

I pushed Dylan on his shoulder.

I felt like crying.

It hurts me to know that i hurt yass. And this thought have been bothering me for two whole weeks. Wala naman akong magagawa, may mga bagay lang talagang dapat unahin. May mga bagay na dapat ayusin, tapusin bago makapag simula ng panibago.

"Why will I do that? You are an asshole Pallermo." he smirked. Asshole? 

maybe i am, but what the fuck does he care? I should have punched him in the face but i'm too exhausted to do that. I am injured. My left leg is still throbbing with pain. I met an accident while i was in the states. Yes. I call everything that has happened two weeks ago an accident.

Why? ahh. I dont want to remember.

"I love her Dylan, just please back off." i surrendered. I'm nearly crying. I dont care if i look like a wuss right now.

He stared at me in the face.

"You sure, Pallermo?" he's sad. Why? i couldn't care less.

"Yes, i am fucking sure. And right now, i want to be with her. Can you back off? like, Really stay away from her?" there's insecurity in my voice. I hope he agrees.

"If you promise to love her right."

FVCK! promise to love her right? As if he did? what?

"You don't have to ask me that."

suddenly the guitar's sound broke the silence and Rig said: "Go find Yass for Chris-sake! Ang dami nyong arte!" he's smiling. The crowd cooed. 

I looked back at Dylan. He nodded. "I will back off, for now. We'll talk some other time. Go find her, she's been through a lot lately. because of you. You must understand her pain, because well, i think you've been in hell, too."

"Thank you!" i tapped his shoulder and tried to find the love of my life.

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I know where to find her.

I just know.

I stared at the stairs.

Paakyat sa Rooftop.

Solitary confinement ni muning.

I sighed.

Kahit hirap, pinilit ko sarili kong ihakbang mga paa ko.

Gusto ko ng magmadali paakyat sa taas.

I'm sure she's here.

When i reached my destination, i exhaled.

Napangiwwi na ko. Masakit talaga.

I looked at my pants, mejo dumudugo na yung legs ko sa part na may sugat.

Shit.

I gently pushed the door.

And there she was, curling up like a kitten.

Nakaupo sya sa sulok, sobbing.

She then faced me.

She's crying.

Her make up smeared all over her face, beautiful still.

Kita ko kahit madilim.

It hurts.

It just send a pang of pain in my chest. Parang may nakadagan na mabigat na bagay sa dibdib ko.

Parang may buhangin sa lalamunan ko.

"W-what are you doing here?" tumayo sya.

Paika akong lumapit sa kanya. She saw me grinning with pain.

Pero wala syang sinabi. Nung nakalapit ako sa kanya, she stepped back.

:'(

it made me wanna cry.

and i did.

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(nahihirapan akong i POV si Juan, Baka kasi di ko maibigay yung feelings na dapat nkikita ni Yass eh. ahhaha)

Yass's POV

I looked at Juan.

Nabibigla ako.

Why did he followed me?

Why is he walking in a limp?

Why is he crying?

"Why are y-you c-crying?" i started to cry too. for the nth time.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry. She means nothing to me, i swear to you. I'm sorry i left without a word. I'm sorry i did not contact you. I'm sorry i hurt you. And i'm sorry because i'm making it hard for you to love me." he kneeled as i stand in front of him then hugged me by my waist.

"what are you doing." nabibigla ako. I'm supposed to be mad right? but seeing him cry like this, it makes me melt.

"I'm just saying that I Love You. Please don't you ever doubt that." he's still crying. "and please naman Yass, wag ka na uling lalapit kay Dylan, nag seselos ako. Sobrang nag seselos ako."

Lumuhod na din ako, para magkaharap kami. then i cupped his face.

"Ano bang sinasabi mo? Hindi ka dapat magselos, dapat ako ang magalit sayo. Dapat sinasaktan kita ngayon kagaya ng nailarawan ko sa isip ko. Sinaktan moko, naiintindihan mo ba? kasi mahal kita, at nahihirapan akong patuloy na mahalin ka. Kasi nasasaktan ako. Noong una, ang sabi ko sa sarili ko, hihintayin kitang maging handa bago mo sabihin sakin ang mga nangyari sa nakaraan mo. Pinilit kong paniwalain ang sarili ko na kaya kong maghintay. Pero dumating sya. Hindi ko pala kaya. Hindi ko kayang maging clueless sa nakaraan mo. Nasasaktan ako, kasi pakiramdam ko napaka layo mo pa rin, gayong mahal na mahal kita. Gusto ko sana abot kamay kita." i cried. 

"Yass.." theres uncertainty in his vice.

"no let me finish. Noong umagang yon, inaasahan ko talga na susundan moko. Pero hindi kadumating. I waited for you to clear things out. Nagtiwala ako na hindi mo ko kayang tiisin. Pero wala eh, nakaya mo. Yun ang masakit dun Juan. Kasi, ultimo yung mga maliliit na bagay na akala ko tama ako, mali pa din. Hindi pala talaga kita kilala. At kasalanan ko ba? Gustong gusto kitang abutin, pero ayaw mo naman."

"yass, you dont understand."

"And  i don't want to understand Juan. Tama na muna, masyado akong nasasaktan. Hindi ko kaya." words slipped my lips so easy, and ngayon palang nararamadaman ko na ang regret. pero kakayanin ko, wag lang akong masaktan pa ulit.

"Yass, please. dont break up with me. Ikaw na lang ang meron ako ngayon."

"We're through Juan."

"no..no.. please Yass. No...."

I shut my eyes so tight. Then inhaled deeply.

"Goodbye Singkit.."

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