LOVE BEAT

Chapter 25 **Pretty went REALLY wild.

I looked at myself in the mirror.

Namumugto mga mata ko.

Hindi pa ko natutulog.

I lost so much weight.

A week have passed since that fatal day.

Ni hindi nya ako hinabol.

I know he's mad at me,

pero sana maintindihan nya yung nararamdaman ko.

I only wanted him to fetch Akee and make sure that she's safe that night.

But they kissed, in front of me.

She humiliated me in front of many people.

And wala syang ginawa.

He remained still, let her kiss him.

Di nya ko pinagtanggol.

And after ng lahat ng nangyari that night,

Kasama pa namin sya sa isang lugar?

Did he know how that scene hurt me?

It broke me. Wounded my soul.

Because I'm jealous.

I can feel there's something between them.

And why didn't he followed me?

was he confused?

naguguluhan ba sya sa nararamdaman nya?

narealize nya ba na mahal nya pa din si Akee?

And where would that leave me?

No calls. No texts. Wala.

I started to pity myself.

I feel alone.

Kung gano kabilis na naging kami,

ganun din kabilis na natapos yung relationship namin.

Yess. It's all over.

I have cut all ties.

I erased his number.

I stopped going to school.

One week na kong absent. And yes, I'm a total mess.

I still dont know how to pick up all the broken pieces of myself.

Will i start all over again?

without him?

Moving on.

Two words.

But these two words seemed to be the hardest step of my life.

For the first time, i dont want to move on.

Kahit alam kong kailangan.

Kahit alam kong mas makabubuti para sa akin na mag move on.

Ayoko.

Kasi, moving on will lead to "me, forgetting him".

I dont want to do that.

Because he is my lifeline.

I realized that too soon.

Maybe it seemed pathetic.

Masyadong mabilis.

Pero hindi naman dapat sa tagal ng pinag samahan sinusukat ang nararamdaman ng tao hindi ba?

Mahal ko si Juan.