Moon and Flowers

Chapter One

My brain commanded my system an alert when I heard my alarm ringing. My heart raced like crazy, hammering the cage of my ribs. I turned off the alarm and sat quietly, trying to calm my breathing. Napabuga ako ng hangin at napahilamos ng mukha. I changed my alarm last night and I forgot to change the default tone. What a way to start the morning.

Anyway, I thanked the heavens for another day to look forward to and stood up. I stretched gently before going out of my room, leading myself to the bathroom to do my skincare and brush my teeth. Right after, the day starts now.

I went back to my room to get my notebook with cute moon prints and headed straight to the kitchen right after. I cooked the planned breakfast on my spreadsheet of meal plans in my notebook. While cooking, I started brewing coffee. It's a fun thing to do. Over the course of months, I learned how to do such things.

As I place the food on the dining table, I heard the door's creaking sound. The plate nearly slid from my hand in surprise. I bit my lip to concentrate on preparing breakfast. When I looked at the door, there was Spade holding his phone, scrolling through it with his forehead slightly creased. He didn't even bother to look at me. He just sat and continued to check emails.

I've been married to Spade for over half a year now. We're like this each and every day. I'll be preparing his breakfast and sit quietly somewhere other than the radius his vision can detect. When he's gone to work, the expanse of his condo unit is mine for the rest of the day. When the night falls, I'm going to prepare his dinner and wait for him to arrive. That's how it is every day. And as the days go by, my list of meals that he approves to eat expands more and more. It's a good thing for someone I barely know. 

He scanned the table and looked at me. "Where's my coffee?"

Napahawak ako sa dibdib sa gulat. I took a deep breath. That cold baritone voice does make everyone startle and those eyes. Those bossy eyes never failed to make me agitated.

"Just a minute. I think it's finished." I got his coffee and brought it to the table. "Here."

 Kinagatan lang niya yung toast then he ignored it to sip on his coffee, still scrolling through his email. When I felt like he doesn't need me there anymore, I moved to the living room. I tried watching the Kdrama I started yesterday. Pinatay ko na lang yung sounds dahil baka maingayan siya. But as I continued to watch, I found myself craning my neck to glance at him. He has the same characteristics as the guy in the Kdrama I'm watching.

His dark hair is tidy every day, and you can see his brows meeting most of the time. It makes me shiver every time he glances as if I wronged him in a way. But he is undeniably clean by just looking at him in his corporate suit. His clean appearance just made me feel so untidy. It's unfair! I have dark brown hair that I think I care of just enough. I was so bored and I thought of all the Kdrama girls having fringes bangs. So I tried to cut mine and thankfully, it does look like theirs. But I feel like it's always poking my eyes. My brown eyes are too weak to look at his. But at least I can somehow hide through my fringes. Most people tell me that I always look sleepy because of my eyes. Masyado raw maamo ang mata ko. 

I can't sit up straight around his presence. Hindi ako mapakali sa inuupuan ko. Until now, I couldn't get accustomed to the things I normally do when he's around. I couldn't let my guard down because maybe in a snap, he might get mad. That's what I'm afraid to happen. I don't know how he is when he gets mad. For everything else, I guess I'm used to it. I'm used to living here in his condo, I'm used to the everyday routines, and I'm used to the fact that you can forget everything but not his coffee in the morning. I swear, not his coffee.

Napatayo ako bigla nang mapansin kong paalis na siya. Hindi na naman maayos yung necktie niya.

"Spade, your necktie is a bit rumpled," I told him.