Moon and Flowers

Chapter Sixteen

Hindi ko na nakitang bumalik si Spade mula sa closet niya. After a little rest on the couch, I stood up and went outside. I saw Spade at the veranda. Tumungo na lang ako sa kusina at naghanda ng smoothie bowl ko. I sat at the breakfast nook and ate it there. I was staring blankly as I chew the fruits when I saw Spade come back inside, eyes glued on the phone. He's already in his sleepwear. It seems like he didn't notice me here when he went straight to his room. I guess he simply doesn't want to see me.

After eating and taking my meds, I cleaned up the kitchen slowly because I should be staying in bed as much as possible. But I don't think I will still have a bed in this situation. Right. Where will I even sleep in his bedroom? Living for another ten years is undeniably much more possible than sharing the bed with him. And why do I even have to move there? 

After I wrapped the kitchen up, I went back to his bedroom. He's sitting cozily on the divan at the corner beside his lamp while reading on his iPad, too busy to even look at me. 

"Move your things into the closet. The farther right is empty," he dictated without looking at me. 

I just nodded and dragged my suitcase into his walk-in closet. I forgot he has a motion-detector sensor light so napatalon ako nung biglang bumukas 'yon pagpasok ko. There, once again, his fortress greeted me. I moved my clothes into the section that he said. It was way too heavy so I sat on his sofa. He has a daybed here. Saka ako napatingin doon. This is way better than his sofa in his bedroom. I can sleep here more comfortably. And also, it would be an advantage for him. He wouldn't have to endure seeing me. 

After resting a bit, I peeked at the edge of the door going to his bedroom. He's still reading at the divan. I couldn't understand him. When he talked to me earlier, he wasn't mad or annoyed. It was like the way we talked before. Is he not mad at me anymore?

I grabbed my moon pillow and Puck with me from his bedroom's couch. 

"Where are you going?"

"Your closet," mahinang sagot ko.

I couldn't show my face to him. Nahihiya ako. I probably looked ridiculously pale after cleaning my face. I just moved into his closet and dropped my things on the daybed. Nagpahinga muna ako at napaupo. I was looking for a duvet inside when I saw the door. Pagbukas ko, it's a little hall papunta sa pintuan palabas sa balcony. Of course. That's how he got there earlier. 

I just went back to my room to get my moon-patterned quilt and a few more pillows. I settled on the daybed to gasp for air as soon as I got back in his closet. I tested his daybed. Pwede na. It's more comfortable than his couch in his bedroom.  As long as I have Puck and my moon pillow. I don't know if this is some kind of punishment or he'll just use the other room.

I couldn't stop thinking about my checkup earlier. I need a companion. How will I even have my bed rest? How would I tell that to Spade? I promised not to be a burden to him. A burden is the last thing he would wish for. I should've just asked to get admitted to the hospital. My insurance still covers a little stay. 

I suddenly remembered Nick. I called him to ease off my mind. While it was ringing, I pulled up Puck to hug.

"Are you busy?" I asked him when he answered the call.

"No, no. I just had my dinner. Is something wrong?"

I sighed. "Nothing. I just thought of calling you. I'm just happy to have you here, you know? It's a lot bearable with you, Nick."

The other line went quiet for a while. "Hey. Did something happen? Tell me, Diana. What did your doctor say aside from your bed rest?"

"Wala naman. Pautang nga ako," I joked.